Christmas wishes? Uh… Damn

This year has been intense to say the least.. It’s also made me focus on everything else than the season we are in, which is winter and soon to be Christmas holidays 🤯 ..

I honestly haven’t been decorating, I haven’t been buying many presents and I definitely haven’t been interested in much lately -other than my physiotherapy that is.. But I really need to change that! I need some good old holiday cheer, and what better way, than to start writing a damn wish list and to decorate a little? ❄️

Some of my wishes this year.

  • Daniel Wellington watch – Petite Melrose
  • Glam Glow – Thirstymud
  • NYX jumbo eye pencil – Iced mocha + frenchfries + Yogurt
  • Maxi scarf – soft and pref in grey / pink tones
  • CLEAN perfume – Skin (An old time favorite!)

So do you guys have some amazing Christmas wish lists? Maybe some great inspiration I could borrow? The wishes I have aren’t too expensive and I honestly can’t say I wished for much this year.

The watch is quite beautiful, one of those watches that will look amazing whilst wearing a dress and some nice boots!

I am loving the jumbo eye pencils from NYX and I use them a lot, it’s a way of creating an easy and pretty eye makeup, without too much hassle!

Glam Glow Thirstymud is an amazing face mask / cream, that will hydrate dry and damaged winter skin! All you do after use, is just to wipe it off with some tissues, and let the remaining products stay on your skin. It really works wonders on my skin!

I found this cheap-ish scarf and I found it quite beautiful, it is a neutral grey/pink/white mix of tones, and it’s ultra soft. I found it in a grocery store called “Bilka”, which I never really seem to find anything remotely pretty in, but this scarf is actually pretty cute! I’m in a need of a good scarf lately, cause I honestly don’t have many good ones left to choose from anymore.. Most are thrown out due to wear and tear, and now I’m on the hunt for a new one!

The CLEAN perfumes series are always a win! I love the neutral scented perfumes, they aren’t heavy, they don’t give you a migraine and they cling to your skin, as it was your own personal scent, and I love that about them, they are just super subtle and especially the one called “Skin”. Working with a lot of people as I do, you want to wear something subtle, some people do tend to develop migraines and some can even be allergic to strong perfumes, these ones from CLEAN have never let me down, I have never encountered anyone of the patients that I work with, to have had a bad reaction to that specific perfume.

My biggest wish this year, is that year 2020 will be a good one, a healthy and happy one.

I hope to move into our dream home, I hope to start an extra addition to our family and I hope to finish my education with excellent grades!

Life is all up’s and down’s, it’s a bumpy ride, but it’s ours to live, to grow and to master, only you alone set the limits and only you can push your limits to become a greater you!

That is what year 2019 has taught me.

Thank you to all who has read along on my ramblings, right now it’s 06:44 – early morning, I am currently a bit poorly, with a middle ear infection and a cold, so I woke up to a banging headache and had to take some mild painkillers to be able to go back to sleep, those are finally working now, so I will crawl back into bed, with my sleeping fiancé, whom is also poorly with a bad cold and a sore throat and a bad cough -poor guy!

– He actually woke up, saw me writing my blog and asked very interested “Oh babe what are you writing?” And I told him, he found it cute, cause it’s been a while since I wrote much, this year has been tough on me. He approved of my little Christmas list.

How awesome is it, to have someone sleeping next to you, who wakes up, and reads some of the things you write, and then says “Oh that’s really cute” and drifts off again? He is such a good man, I’m lucky. Even though life has been tough this year, it has also been good to me, with his support, I can do anything!

The last few months..

So I’ve been up to a lot of stuff these past few months, most of them quite bad experiences.

I ended up dislocating my kneecap early in the morning 20.10.19 whilst in the bathroom and the feeling of it all was so intense, having to yell my better half’s name across the apartment to get help, and him running to me, that was scary. I then told him to go get my phone so I could call emergency services and then I relocated my kneecap myself while he wasn’t in view, and I remember thinking that he shouldn’t see this and that I wanted to spare him for it… I’m kinda happy that I could do that myself, so I didn’t need the hospital staff to do it, but I cannot describe the actual pain of dislocating a kneecap, it’s insane.

The first picture is a few hours after the dislocation and relocation of my kneecap.

My right knee a few hours after the dislocation.

As if that weren’t enough, my mum was rushed to the ER due to her eyes, she had pressure build up, due to dialated pupils, she had been to see an eye doctor who had given her some eye drops to examine her eyes and she had a very bad reaction.

The pressure in both her eyes was at max buildup at 77, that is insanely dangerous and not healthy at all for your eyes or your brain for that matter, due to the pressure buildup being located behind the eye sockets and therefore also close to the brain.

Circles = circulation cut off

The last few months has been pure hell, I haven’t been able to walk much due to my insanely swollen knee – no bruising though! I had to go on sick pay and postpone my internship too, which sucks so much!

I am doing physiotherapy exorcises every day at home, and I’m also attending this group workout session every Monday morning from 8 – 9, so I can get my leg back to normal.

To be honest, I had my leg in a Don Joy brace for almost a full month, with a 30 degree bend as my only movement, so I lost a lot of muscle in my leg and also my tendons have shortened, first I couldn’t bend my leg at all, but now it’s mainly straightening my leg that’s impossible, hence why I can’t walk properly, it just sucks.. I’m dead scared of dislocating it again, the pain was so unreal and intense.. But there is like a 30% possibility of this happening again, so I need to always keep working on my legs and gain muscle to support my kneecap, so it won’t happen again.

My Don Joy brace

I was on some heavy painkillers, Tramadol 100mg x3 a day, that dose I honestly didn’t even take! I took half, which is 50mg, but only once or twice a day, just to endure the pain the first week or so. But those pills are horribly addictive, so I refused to take them for long and I skipped those pretty fast. I only take regular painkillers if needed now, I have seen too many people addicted to Tramadol.

My heavy painkillers that I skipped pretty fast.

My mom underwent eye surgery and got her eye lenses removed and replaced on both her eyes due to cataract. The whole procedure was done on a single week with multiple hospital visits, a lot of medicine to keep any pressure buildup down and two surgeries, which I attended -even though I was limping around like an idiot and people thought I was the one needing some sort of surgery… My mum is thankfully doing much better now, and is happy, healthy and pain free -and with no side effects of the pressure buildup in her eyes. Her eye lenses were stiff due to the cataract and that left her with a very small “frame” in her eyes, which then blocked the drainage in both her eyes completely when she got the eye drops at her eye doctors, so he could check her eyes, which is normally a routine thing.

The whole thing could have ruined her vision and created chronic glaucoma, which would have impaired her vision a lot.. But she got a clean bill of health and could all finally relax!

Glaucoma explained.

I am currently lying in bed, just took a 600mg painkiller to dull the ache in both my knees – one due to kneecap dislocation (patellaluxation) the other due to strain, cause of my inability to walk properly, therefore I lean a lot on my left knee.

I got the Don Joy off after almost a month, I donated it to Africa…. I’m happy to be rid of that thing, and now I have a kneecap support band that is supposed to lock the kneecap in place, until you gain enough muscle to not dislocate the kneecap once more. The situation is honestly horrible, I’m usually the nurse, not the patient! I hate being the vulnerable one, I’m a good nurse but a horrible patient.

Kneecap stabilization band.

Last week (Thursday – 28.11.19) I had what’s called electro therapy, that really sucked… It was supposed to awaken my big muscle in my upper thigh, so it could help me straighten my leg out again. For almost ten whole minutes I had a jolt of electricity every 10 seconds going through my thigh, but no much response at all, only a tiny little visible reaction, I’m supposed to have more electro therapy today, so wish me and my leg luck, I need to see results now!

A borrowed picture of undergoing electro therapy.

I’ll see if I can get some proper pictures of the electro therapy today, maybe even do a whole “how to” on physio for weak knees, it might just help someone else out, which is somehow a bit comforting to know.

I’m going to try and relax a bit now before getting ready for today’s session of pain haha, I’m almost used to the torture by now, but somehow it’s also comforting, I know it needs to hurt to get better, especially when it’s muscles and short tendons! I’m glad that my education have at least prepared me a little for this entire disaster, both my mum and her surgery and also my setback with my knee. I have learned a lot recently, but it’s from another point of view -The patient and the family of the patient.

We are very much at the mercy of our medical staff, one wrong step can make a snowball effect, very much like my mother’s current medical history. It is also human for the medical staff to once in a blue moon make the wrong decisions, and it’s all about your own personal coping mechanisms and about the backup from family and friends that sees you through everything. I for one, found out how cool my brain is during the incidents, and then the all crippling shock of it all that comes afterwards. But we have endured, we have prevailed my family and I.

I hope that year 2020 is going to be a much better year for us, we have had a lot of bad luck this year, not just these two incidents, but in our entire family as well. But we cope and we will get stronger from going through this.

I’m proud of myself for doing what I did during my kneecap dislocation, for stepping up and relocating it myself, for thinking “Damn I don’t want my better half to see my knee like this, this is bad!” -I have no clue as to how I did what I did, but I managed, I have a new sense of respect for myself!

Today in pictures

My mood brightens and my worries seems to fade, by simply just walking through the forest.

I adore taking pictures of the nature around me, and most of my life I’ve lived in this cute little town, where the forest is very close by, and I can take a long walk, clear my head and just unwind.

Today was one of those days, where I really needed to take a step back, and think of something else, just for a little while. With the sale of our apartment, the purchase of the house we are in love with, the approval from the bank and the lawyer who needs to look into everything – I am finding myself a teeny tiny bit stressed. My inbox is getting spammed with important emails, and I find myself checking up on it constantly.

– I ain’t complaining though! 😱 I am blessed that I at the “young” age of 31, are able to purchase such a house with my partner / better half. I am also insanely lucky to find a house that we both really like and in an area that’s very appealing. But my mind is going a 100 miles an hour, and I am so excited and nervous at the same time..

This long walk was just what I needed ❤️

Madness and mayhem

It’s been absolutely crazy this past week.. Or actually these past three weeks! 🤣 – And it will only get crazier…

We have had my three bonus kids / my better half’s three awesome kids, staying here for the past three weeks, and I’ve loved every minute of it! They are here every year for three weeks (we live in Denmark and the kids lives in the UK where my better half is from). We have missed them terribly this year, and it’s been so good to catch up with them and spoil them all rotten.

This year we have been staying for a week at my brothers house, at Lolland – which has been absolutely amazing! So much space and so many rooms, one for each of the kids even! That’s been pretty awesome, and it’s got us thinking.. We need a bigger place, we really do.

My bigsister always sends me a bunch of links to fantastic houses that’s for sale, most of them so expensive, that it would put you in debt for a lifetime! But at the end of week two, whilst having the kids over, my sister managed to send me yet another link, this time it was a house that’s affordable, with the rooms we need and a fairly big and private garden..

We were suspicious really.. Looking at the pictures, wondering which flaws would be the final deal-breaker, but as things progressed, the house just got even more interesting.

We called the estate agent up, and asked for a viewing, and we had a look at it. We weren’t disappointed.. It was as nice as on the pictures and very cozy, it had a feel to it! Best of all, it was huge…

Before we knew it, we made an offer, the offer was bargained with a little, but then accepted and our bank approved of the loan, oh my god I’m just speechless!

My mind is an absolute mess, with so many different emotions, and it comes in waves.. Happy, anxious, giddy, excited, drained, melancholic – the list goes on and on, but most of all, I’m relieved.. Finally a new chapter of our lives are starting, and we are on our way to become house owners!

We are about to sell the apartment now and hopefully it will be a quick sale, for the right price. I bought the place 8 years ago, and we love our little home, but it’s also time for something bigger and we are ready for our forever home now, and I believe that we might have found it ❤️

The following weeks, we will be having a professional photographer snapping pictures of our home, and it will shortly after be up for sale, it’s so surreal! 😱😄

Glam Glow

This is by far the best working brand I’ve tried to date, a perfect home spa experience, and worth every penny!

I’m one of those women who’s tried a LOT of face masks, and this is by far the best brand I’ve tried! Every product I’ve tried, have just been working and it’s also a pleasant experience – cause lets be honest, some face masks just plain hurts or dries into this impossible mess that you can’t wash off!

The Glam Glow supermud mask has a slight cooling effect, and is easy to rinse off when it’s dried. It leaves your skin feeling soft and clean. I can’t find a bad thing to say about this face mask, and normally I’m so disappointed with every new product I try – this has a Hollywood feel, and the price is fair too!

The Glam Glow Lip exfoliating treatment is a lip scrub, and I use it a lot, (mainly before applying long lasting lipsticks) and the container is huuuge, so you get a lot of scrub for your money! I’m again a bit speechless, because it actually works! It smells of mint (even tastes of mint lol!), and leaves your lips feeling baby soft, again not one bad word!

This product is for women on the go, it takes no time at all to apply and (for the mask) to dry, I’m impressed and will be repurchasing these products! I’m going to have to try the lip plumper that Glam Glow has made – I have high expectations now that I know these two products work so well!

Purchased at: Matas

Supermud face mask

Lip exfoliating treatment

Beautiful beach vibes

Lately I’ve been spoiled with some awesome products and I want to share a bit of my favorites with you guys!

The theme is of course: Beach vibes! Because it’s summer and in Denmark, the weather is insanely hot, perfect for a day at the beach.

ESSIE: Gel setter and Treat, love & Color


Through the years, Essie has become this “power brand” regarding nail varnish, and I adore the colors and the long lasting formula that it has, these two (from the left) is a Gel Setter top coat, it not only works as a top coat, but it also tints your varnish in a purple/pink hue, very cute! And the second one is a nail treatment varnish, that keeps your nails strong, it’s from Essie’s “TLC” collection, this color is “Mauve-Tivation” and is a soft purple/pink tone, and I love it, very summery. These two polishes together, lasted without chipping one single bit, a WHOLE week, rather impressive!

ECOOKING: Lip balm with pomegranate


– The danish store called “Matas” has a new collab partner called “Beame.”, and through “Beame.” there’s been a bunch of beauty highlights, that is on sale for that month, one of the June highlights, is the gorgeous Ecooking lip balm that you see on the picture above, and it’s insanely good! It’s all organic, raw and natural ingredients that the woman behind Ecooking is using, and who doesn’t love that?? I have this baby in my work bag, and it’s on my lips most weekdays! The scent of pomegranate that this lip balm has is amazing without being too much – a very natural scent.

HH SIMONSEN: The wet brush


I’ve been a fan of this brush since it first came on the market a billion years ago, it is simply amazing! No tangles, no ruined hair and best of all – such a fantastic design, I repurchase this brush every time I need a new brush, they truly are worth the fuss.

ESSIE: Fairy Tailor


I cant get around being in love with Essie, it’s affordable and the varnish just lasts ages, this time I’ve chosen to highlight this nude varnish – This baby is insanely cute and would go perfect with that natural beach look! You know the “casual minimal makeup” kinda vibe? This is your varnish for that occasion! (Or just for work, as I use it for!) it’s not over the top, just subtle, I like.. Again it lasts about a week, and I am a busy bee, I normally make my varnish chip in about a day or two!

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New Years in pictures

The year 2017 was amazing, it was the year that I finally started my nurses assistant education, the year that I found out how it really felt like to be a nurses assistant and how busy it can be, but also rewarding!

It was the year that my amazing fiancé found work as a tiler and I am so insanely proud of him, he is such a strong man and such a wonderful dad and a fantastic fiancé

This year has been hard work, fun, exciting and down right busy! I found a job as an uneducated carer, so I’m basically working two jobs – one as an intern and one as uneducated, it’s hard, but it’s rewarding, I love helping and caring for people and I can’t wait to go to work again! I wouldn’t have it any other way.. My work is a part of who I am, and I am proud of that!

2017 has been a year of growth for me, a year where I’ve built up my confidence and where I have had so much love and support from my fiancé in almost everything I’ve done! I can’t thank him enough..

It’s also been the year where I’ve finally gotten my drivers license – something I’ve been putting off for forever, because I lived close to everything and never needed to drive. – But now I finally have it, and I’m driving! What’s even better is, I got my moms car to drive in all the time, since she hardly used it, I’m so thankful for that!

My little sister finished her masters degree in IT – I’m such a proud big sis, she is such a brainy girl and I know she will end up becoming someone great, she is just that type of girl. Determined and insanely smart

It’s also been a year of redecorating, where we redid the entire bedroom – newly painted and newly furnitured, now we just want a new bed, and a few bits and bobs, I really love that bedroom now!

2017 has also been all about spending time with my bonus babies, and I miss them dearly right now! They were here the summer of ’17, for three weeks, and I cried horribly when they had to go home! I felt miserable for weeks..

I truly hope that everyone had a wonderful and safe celebration of the new year and that 2018 will be an amazing year, mine can’t be anything but, cause I have them three wonderful bonus babies, my fiancé and my family by my side! I couldn’t wish for anything more from 2017, it’s been the best year I could have imagined!

See you online guys! x