Christmas wish list

Hi everyone, it’s been a while since I posted anything, mostly due to me focusing on my education and my job.

I’ve decided to share with you, a bit of wishes I have for Christmas this year, it’s mainly make up, cause I just can’t seem to get enough of it, and a bit of funny or cool things from one of my favorite websites – I can’t get enough of it!

I picked out a lot of different make up items, some is high end brands, and some is very affordable.

I also wished for some items to decorate my home (from my parents), because I don’t have much of that, and what I have is pretty old heirlooms, so I put them a bit out of the way, to make sure nothing happens to them.

The ABH Glow Kit palette, inspired by Nicole Guerriero! It’s fantastic, who can’t use a good highlighter kit? 😍 You can use it as a highlighter or as eyeshadows, they would just work wonders both ways, their just that damn pretty! It’s limited edition, so you better act fast guys, it’s definitely a Christmas present worth getting for the wife / girlfriend!

The metallic liquid lipsticks from MAC is to die for! I adore the color “Softly Rockin”, I have two colors from the Retro Matte liquid lipsticks, and their amazing! Soft, not too dry like many other long stay lipsticks are, it’s perfect for an evening out!

How gorgeous are these?! I love being cozy and warm, staying at home with a great book and a cup of coffee, these slippers are just perfect for that! Plus… They got lights on! Uuuhh!

The Too Faced Sweethearts perfect flush blush, its bling, a fantastic color and perfect for a beautiful blush glow, I think this is a gorgeous blush, would love this as a Christmas present!

The Nanoleaf Aurora LED light, its insane! You can set it up on an app on your phone, decide which colors you want, or even hook it up to your music device, and let it flash along with the music, it’s too cool. It can even wake you up slowly in the morning with a set timer, how incredible is that? I would love that in the bedroom, just above our bed, would look pretty neat!

The worlds cutest cup of coffee! A unicorn cup, for the unicorn / horse loving woman, haha! I think it’s adorable, I’m into this whole unicorn theme to be honest.. Their so FLUFFY! 😍

The ABH Modern Renaissance is a magnificent eyeshadow palette, I love the golden, brown and pink hues, their just very much me! A palette that’s highly pigmented and full of bling.

The MAC Snowball brush kits are adorable, every woman needs a new set of brushes once in a while, and who would say no to a MAC brush set? Their so pretty these! I love bling, and these are just bling enough for me!

The MAC Snowball eye bag in “Smokey Pink” is gorgeous, I think you could do some fantastic smokey eyes with just these two, and the mascara and eyeliner is great, I tried the eyeliner and I’ve heard great things about this mascara, all in all – a great kit!

Golden Rose is a new brand for me, they just started a store in Waves, and I have a long last matte liquid lipstickand a bronzer from them, and I adore both! I always wanted to try out a lip primer, just to see how it would work in my make up routine, and I wouldn’t mind getting my hands on this one!

I myself went a bit mad with presents for my fiancé and my family this year, but I won’t mention what I bought for them, because they might follow this blog and get a sneak peak, that would be too bad!

I hope your all doing great and enjoying this month and the upcoming holidays, see you online!

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Life lately

I think I might have neglected my blog a bit.. Or actually quite a lot.

I guess this blog is more a diary than a famous blog, where everyone comments or likes what I write, or buy what I blog about, in the end, I don’t blog for followers, likes or comments – I blog for myself, so I can look back on all the written pages one day and say I might have grown, evolved or learned something in life, that’s worth being proud of. Us humans, we love evolving, acquiring new skill sets and setting new goals, and I guess this is what I use my blog for mostly, keeping track of my goals and how I have evolved, that’s what I love about blogging, I can always go back, and find fond memories, or lessons I learned, I love that.

Alas, I have been neglecting my blog, but it’s due to life and studies – so I guess in some way I’m excused?

The other evening, (Late Sunday evening the 5th of Nov), I got spooked, reminded of my own mortality in a way, that I guess most people would very much hate. I treat citizens every day, with severe illnesses, but to all of a sudden be in need of treatment and care myself, that was truly nerve wrecking beyond belief.

It started with my better half, wanting to get our home in tip top shape, so we decided to throw old stuff away, and I guess I should have been more careful, since I’ve now been tested and I know I’m allergic to dust and dust mites, but I wasn’t. How young and naive, but very true, I’m 29, not 89 for gods sakes, I’m invincible – untouchable, or so I thought.. After several days of throwing old dusty stuff away, I fell ill with a throat infection, that I then got antibiotics for, but I kept on going – typical me really.

I loved the whole idea of throwing things out we didn’t need and sorting things out and finding new ways to place furniture, but then my nose started acting up, it was itching, I was sneezing all the time and it would run constantly, it was living hell! Everyone with allergies, that sneeze when allergic, they know what I say by “it tires you out”, cause sneezing every five to ten minutes, believe it or not, it makes you worn.. But again, I thought I was just fine, that it was a side effect to my throat infection – which I was on antibiotics for.

As the Sunday passed, my better half had dusted and cleaned out the entire bedroom, how great is he?! I had retired and found myself a bit poorly, more than I should have been when I was a few days in to my antibiotics treatment.

We decided at about 23:30 to go to bed, when I went to lie down, my breathing became very troubled, at first I just shrugged it off, until my better half told me to ring a doctor (the simple number 1813 in Denmark), it’s basically lifesavers in scrubs! Awake at all times and there to take your call, no matter how dumb your question about your health is. Thank god for them!

I waited about 5 min, then talked to a nurse, who decided that I needed to be patched through to a doctor, and he found that it would be worth a trip to the emergency room – so I went, but not totally convinced that I had to.. I still thought it might just be nothing! But my fiancé – bless him, kept saying I should go, so I went, and told them the entire thing.

I got seen to quite fast, which is rare, cause an emergency room is always busy, always someone who has it worse than you, but I guess not this time..

They took my peak flow (my exhaling breath capacity basically), it was 150 at tops, its normally 300 – 400 ish – still I thought it was nothing. My breathing (kinda since I had tried to lie down and sleep) was so bad and I sounded like an old kettle trying to boil, they took my blood pressure, and they saw i was clearly hyperventilating to catch my breath.

In the end they decided to commit me to the emergency room – and I just kept saying I was fine, I think more to myself than to them, cause I couldn’t be ill, it just won’t do!

It finally dawned on me, how bad it was, when I was lying in a hospital bed, getting treatment through an IV. Antihistamine straight into my bloodstream. And to make matters worse, I got a mask to help me breathe, with a drug to dilate my lungs and make room for the air, and make the kettle sounds stop.

Everything went so fast, I remember telling the nurse – like a numpty – that I didn’t need anything IV, I was fine, but she didn’t listen, bless her! I could have gone home from there, still feeling horrible, not having had the treatment my body needed.

I got the IV done, that was scary thing in itself, cause I’m always the one holding the needle, not the one getting the pointy end of it… I must say, she did an awesome job, no bruises, swelling or blood, and in no time, she was back with vials of antihistamine and adrenal cortex hormone, (I had to look that up, hope it’s spelled right? It’s the word in Danish for “binyrebarkhormon”) I don’t know what would have happened if I hadn’t listened to my fiancé or stayed at the hospital that night, but they said that they wanted to keep me for minimum 6 hours for observation, which I decided was necessary, since I obviously didn’t know my allergies that well to evaluate on them myself. I stayed that night, on my own, in a hospital room with two other patients (We did have privacy though!)

The side effects of the mask, the adrenal cortex hormone and the antihistamines made me feel loopy, in a constant haze and I had quite a bit of heart throbbing, so due to that, I got almost no sleep, and the sleep I got, was with me waking up, not knowing where I was, due to drugs and just me being tired.

When I got released from the hospital, I was so worn and still very loopy, like I’d been out drinking all night. I decided that morning to pay my doctor a visit, so I got an hour of sleep, which was constantly interrupted by me waking up, not knowing where I was – awesome..

My doctor decided that I needed to rule out asthma, as my sister has asthma, and it could very well be that I had that too, which would make my allergies more severe and hard to get through. Wednesday I will go through an asthma test, and I need to make an appointment with a specialist in lungs, allergies and asthma, my doctor said that he was the best of the best, so I’m expecting good results. He also took a look at my current antihistamines, and said to throw them out, they wouldn’t work what so ever, and then he prescribed me 180 mg ones instead, it sounds like an awful lot.. But if it works, then I’m happy!

All in all, my health has been dropping severely this past week(s), and I have learned to listen more to my body and what it’s trying to tell me. Being young(ish) doesn’t mean that your immortal. I just need rest now, cause on day three (Tuesday), I just feel worn out, a feeling I never had before.

Thanks for reading along, those of you who got through this wall of text.

Now it’s just a waiting game, a game I’m quite bad at to be honest!

One single advice from me, that I’ve learned the hard way, would be, if you feel off, it’s probably because something’s wrong! Listen to your body for gods sakes! Don’t listen to people who says it’s probably nothing, they aren’t you, they can’t feel what you feel. Be persistent, in the end that gets results.

See you online x

Gonna be a long day..

”Flexibile learning”

That is what they call it, sitting in class without any teacher, at an adult education facility, its silly, all those modern smartass ways of learning, and our teachers are caught in the middle of all of this, saying they agree with us, but can’t do anything. It’s the politicians that think it’s a great way to run the classrooms, once a week, a Thursday for us, and we are sat there, all alone for hours, getting a tiny bit of homework, that we do in about half an hour and then we can stare into the wall, or get unattendance if we leave.. Decisions, decisions.. *sigh*

I feel the teachers though, it must be horrible to work like this, to be professional and having to deal with these ”clever” politicians and the fact that they know nothing about teaching or how students learns and how we thrive in a classroom. I wish it was different, I wish we had normal classes and would learn something in these hours, its important to me, it really is. I am dealing with people every day, and I need to be sharp and informed, to know what to do in each situation that can appear, but the teachers are doing their abselute best with what they have been given, thats for sure, I love the teachers, but damn the system is terrible. I wish that the politicians would spend a month in a students or teachers shoes, and then create new and suitable ideas for learning and thriving.

We do learn a lot at my school, but can’t help but wonder.. How much would we learn, if we did not have this ”flexible learning” every Thursday? How ahead would we be? How much extra could we learn? – It’s worth a thought really.

Hope all you guys have a lovely Thursday, I will try, even though I’m tired and am moody cause of this ”flexible” way of learning lol..

See you online x

Life lately

A girls hair is her secret weapon, or at least I think so.. And my hair is definitely what makes me feel attractive and feminine. So August (almost at the end of August), I spoiled myself by visiting my hairdresser and getting a new hair color and some reflexes made. – It was highly needed, since it’s been ages ago that I went to the hairdressers. 

So I’ll give you guys some before and after pictures below! 😄

A before picture

The after picture

The result is just perfect, and I’m so happy that I listened to my hairdresser and what she thought would suit me, sometimes it just works out better than imagined!

At the beginning of September I finally got myself dragged to the opticians to get my glasses ordered – not one of my fondest experiences tho.. I have to wear them every day, normally I just need reading glasses, but my sight got worse through the years apparently. So I ended up buying Karen Millen glasses and am crossing my fingers and hoping I won’t get worse eye sight any time soon. – I really don’t like glasses much, that’s the honest truth! I feel geeky with them on (More than I already am yes!) and most of them don’t fit my petite face – it looks like the glasses are wearing me and not me wearing the glasses.. So I ended up with a pair that wasn’t that bold, even tho I wanted bold, go bold or go home right?! But I just don’t suit bold glasses..

A close up of me and my new glasses!


So that’s my glasses, nothing big or extreme, just a classic look, it was horribly to pick out glasses – I was torn between this model from Karen Millen and a Hugo Boss model. To be fair, I adored both of them, but these fit me the best. I hope that I’ll get more confident wearing them, but right now I’m not thrilled.. But it’s better than not being able to see properly or have headaches all the time..

Hope your month was as good?

See you online x

Being someone’s “bonus” 

I told you guys in my last post, that I have had so much going on and have been very busy, that’s the reason I’ve been a bit quiet here! 🙂 

A picture from Tivoli


I finally have a little time now, and I can share with you all what I’ve been up to! 

My fiancé have been blessed earlier in life with three amazing kids and I get along with very well with their mother, she is a good friend of mine I might add and a brilliant mom! Their three kids have been on vacation here in Denmark for two weeks, and I’ve been experiencing how it is to be a “bonus mom”. ❤️

A picture from Copenhagen zoo

 
We went to Tivoli (A Danish amusement park), we went to the Zoo in Copenhagen and we went to Dino Land in our town (a huge indoor playground). We did a lot while they were here, and it was amazing to be a part of their life, I’m really lucky to be able to see them grow up like this. Their truly amazing kids and so well behaved.

A picture from Tivoli

As soon as they left us at the airport, I must admit, I cried. I was getting so used to having them around, the laughs, the hugs and the busy days.. Our home was empty and quiet after they left, it really was. They will always have a home here in Denmark with their dad and I, their brilliant kids, all tree of them. 

A picture from Copenhagen zoo

 
So this is why I’ve been so madly busy, and I’ve been loving it! I now understand the busy life of a parent / bonus parent, but also the joy that comes with it – it’s truly unique. So to every parent or bonus parent out there, so much love from me to you! It’s hard work, but it must be so rewarding.

See you guys online! x

Working hard

My work uniform and name tag!

It’s been a few weeks since I started my care helper education, I had only one week at the education center, then it was time to be an intern. 😅

– But I can honestly say, it’s been an amazing experience, one week have passed to be precise and the people I’ve met have all been wonderful! I truly feel quite lucky to have gotten this internship at this town, it’s a perfect fit for me. I feel like I belong, I did that since day one actually, and it’s been rewarding to work with people and keeping active every day. The more time I spend in this line of work, the more passionate I become, I don’t just want to do okay at this, I wanna ace it. I want to be the best that I can possibly be – not better than anyone else, but strive for perfection in my own boundaries of knowledge and skill, I think that it’s important to set a goal, I want to wake up every morning and be the best version of me that I can possibly be.

There is so much that I still want to learn, but I have time and I can’t wait to take everything in, soak it up and write it down in my “geek book”! 😄  (see the picture below)

My notebook where i write about deceases and other very important subjects I need to remember. (The geek book)


Life lately have been extremely busy, I’ll tell you guys more about it later – if you haven’t already seen on my Instagram? 😉 But now, I better go to sleep, I have a tricky Tuesday tomorrow! 

See you online! x

Exam preps

I have thought a lot about this post, also because its been a while since I last posted something on my blog, I have missed writing a lot to be honest and I finally thought of the right post to write, so all of my followers knows why I am a bit quiet on my blog and maybe a little stressed – but in a good and healthy way none the less!

I have been in school the last couple of months, I have had an introduction course to the caregiver education and I have been studying like mad and enjoying life and all its ups and downs. I have not had many downs though, I have worked very hard and I have fewer weekends to myself and my fiancé than I used to have in the beginning of the education course.

I have started working as an uneducated carer at the elderlyhome I was an intern at, I work the weekends that’s available and sometimes its many, sometimes none, it always seems to change and that’s just fine with me. I have been on whats called ”SU” – education benefits in a more simple term I guess you can call it, that’s something we are very lucky to receive here in Denmark, but its a very slim pay, with hardly any money to spend on anything but rent, so I took this job due to finances, but also because I want to keep in touch with the very first place I worked and I have loved that very much.

So I am working during most weekends, at least once a day every weekend, sometimes the entire weekend, that is very giving but also hard, cause of the very little free time I get for myself. This weekend I have two morning shifts, that will be my entire weekend gone, but its okay, I know a lot of people work a lot harder than me and I feel blessed because I have this job to rely on, while I study, it has been a lifesaver and my boss was an angel to give me this opportunity.

All of May have been a real struggle to find an internship. Due to the new education reform, we now have to find our own internships, instead of just getting them appointed to us, they said in mid May on the radio (Danish radio), that it’s very few that get an internship nowadays as a carer or as an assistant nurse. Let me tell you guys, its been a real struggle.. Hard work and a lot of stress have been built up in the month of May, having to focus on education and paying attention to what the teachers taught us, while also having to go to interviews and writing applications for internships – that’s been horrible! But in the end, all my hard work has payed off, I was cheeky and called up a kommune and asked if they could help me and get me an interview, it worked! I had an interview with them, and after about two week I got an internship with them, at a care home close to where I live and after August I no longer have to stress about how many shifts I get at work in the weekends, cause I will get adult internship salary, something that not many have been given, even though we thought that we were all eligible for that. It is a complicated and impossible system, but I thought you just had to be 25 or more to receive adult salary, but unfortunately not. I do not have the answer to this even now, I just know I was one of the few with enough work experience and the proper age. I do think a lot about what this means to my classmates, but I also know that their going to be amazing at being caregivers and together we can help support our elders and disabled.

I have gotten a lot of friends and acquaintances at this education, it has been an amazing experience for me and I would do it all over again, I feel a lot more confident than I did when I first started and now I got some amazing tools to take with me to use during my internship.

The exams are creeping up, next month – July to be exact. I need to have my exam in this main course, so it’s just a regular main exam and then another one in biology / science, which we in Denmark call ”Nature subject”, I’m mostly nervous about the last exam mentioned, cause that is some information you need to remember by heart, to me that is hard. Math has never been my strong side and there is a bit of math in this subject too – but it all comes down to what stuff you get about at the exam and that is something you draw the day before, so you will in total have 24 hours at each exam. I will just do my best, cause that’s all I can do really.

I hope for the very best outcome for all my classmates, cause they have all showed such interest and passion for this education, they all deserve to pass with honors. We need carers that love what they do, just like my classmates do every day, when we have discussions about ethics, moral and dilemmas. We have had some amazing cases that we have worked on and that we have had to discuss in class. In our line of work, we get met by a lot of choices and dilemmas, where our morals will be tested, so far I think everyone have passed with flying colours.

So to wrap it up, good luck to my classmates, to the ones out there reading this post, thats also studying for exams and for the ones looking for internships, you can do it!

With love, Miamariah! x