I truly hope your month has been a safe one and even due to social distancing and the worldwide lockdown, that’s it’s been a good month.
We have had so many DIY projects going on this month and a lot of gardening! I can’t imagine not having a garden anymore, it’s highly addictive! 🥴 I love to work on the garden and I bought a few peonies and some other beautiful flowers to get some colorful flowers in the garden.
Unfortunately we have had some very rough days at the end of this month, my fiancé lost a very loved member of his family, and we miss her dearly. We are still in a state of shock.
This year has been intense to say the least.. It’s also made me focus on everything else than the season we are in, which is winter and soon to be Christmas holidays 🤯 ..
I honestly haven’t been decorating, I haven’t been buying many presents and I definitely haven’t been interested in much lately -other than my physiotherapy that is.. But I really need to change that! I need some good old holiday cheer, and what better way, than to start writing a damn wish list and to decorate a little? ❄️
So do you guys have some amazing Christmas wish lists? Maybe some great inspiration I could borrow? The wishes I have aren’t too expensive and I honestly can’t say I wished for much this year.
The watch is quite beautiful, one of those watches that will look amazing whilst wearing a dress and some nice boots!
I am loving the jumbo eye pencils from NYX and I use them a lot, it’s a way of creating an easy and pretty eye makeup, without too much hassle!
Glam Glow Thirstymud is an amazing face mask / cream, that will hydrate dry and damaged winter skin! All you do after use, is just to wipe it off with some tissues, and let the remaining products stay on your skin. It really works wonders on my skin!
I found this cheap-ish scarf and I found it quite beautiful, it is a neutral grey/pink/white mix of tones, and it’s ultra soft. I found it in a grocery store called “Bilka”, which I never really seem to find anything remotely pretty in, but this scarf is actually pretty cute! I’m in a need of a good scarf lately, cause I honestly don’t have many good ones left to choose from anymore.. Most are thrown out due to wear and tear, and now I’m on the hunt for a new one!
The CLEAN perfumes series are always a win! I love the neutral scented perfumes, they aren’t heavy, they don’t give you a migraine and they cling to your skin, as it was your own personal scent, and I love that about them, they are just super subtle and especially the one called “Skin”. Working with a lot of people as I do, you want to wear something subtle, some people do tend to develop migraines and some can even be allergic to strong perfumes, these ones from CLEAN have never let me down, I have never encountered anyone of the patients that I work with, to have had a bad reaction to that specific perfume.
My biggest wish this year, is that year 2020 will be a good one, a healthy and happy one.
I hope to move into our dream home, I hope to start an extra addition to our family and I hope to finish my education with excellent grades!
Life is all up’s and down’s, it’s a bumpy ride, but it’s ours to live, to grow and to master, only you alone set the limits and only you can push your limits to become a greater you!
That is what year 2019 has taught me.
Thank you to all who has read along on my ramblings, right now it’s 06:44 – early morning, I am currently a bit poorly, with a middle ear infection and a cold, so I woke up to a banging headache and had to take some mild painkillers to be able to go back to sleep, those are finally working now, so I will crawl back into bed, with my sleeping fiancé, whom is also poorly with a bad cold and a sore throat and a bad cough -poor guy!
– He actually woke up, saw me writing my blog and asked very interested “Oh babe what are you writing?” And I told him, he found it cute, cause it’s been a while since I wrote much, this year has been tough on me. He approved of my little Christmas list.
How awesome is it, to have someone sleeping next to you, who wakes up, and reads some of the things you write, and then says “Oh that’s really cute” and drifts off again? He is such a good man, I’m lucky. Even though life has been tough this year, it has also been good to me, with his support, I can do anything!
So I’ve been up to a lot of stuff these past few months, most of them quite bad experiences.
I ended up dislocating my kneecap early in the morning 20.10.19 whilst in the bathroom and the feeling of it all was so intense, having to yell my better half’s name across the apartment to get help, and him running to me, that was scary. I then told him to go get my phone so I could call emergency services and then I relocated my kneecap myself while he wasn’t in view, and I remember thinking that he shouldn’t see this and that I wanted to spare him for it… I’m kinda happy that I could do that myself, so I didn’t need the hospital staff to do it, but I cannot describe the actual pain of dislocating a kneecap, it’s insane.
The first picture is a few hours after the dislocation and relocation of my kneecap.
My right knee a few hours after the dislocation.
As if that weren’t enough, my mum was rushed to the ER due to her eyes, she had pressure build up, due to dialated pupils, she had been to see an eye doctor who had given her some eye drops to examine her eyes and she had a very bad reaction.
The pressure in both her eyes was at max buildup at 77, that is insanely dangerous and not healthy at all for your eyes or your brain for that matter, due to the pressure buildup being located behind the eye sockets and therefore also close to the brain.
Circles = circulation cut off
The last few months has been pure hell, I haven’t been able to walk much due to my insanely swollen knee – no bruising though! I had to go on sick pay and postpone my internship too, which sucks so much!
I am doing physiotherapy exorcises every day at home, and I’m also attending this group workout session every Monday morning from 8 – 9, so I can get my leg back to normal.
To be honest, I had my leg in a Don Joy brace for almost a full month, with a 30 degree bend as my only movement, so I lost a lot of muscle in my leg and also my tendons have shortened, first I couldn’t bend my leg at all, but now it’s mainly straightening my leg that’s impossible, hence why I can’t walk properly, it just sucks.. I’m dead scared of dislocating it again, the pain was so unreal and intense.. But there is like a 30% possibility of this happening again, so I need to always keep working on my legs and gain muscle to support my kneecap, so it won’t happen again.
My Don Joy brace
I was on some heavy painkillers, Tramadol 100mg x3 a day, that dose I honestly didn’t even take! I took half, which is 50mg, but only once or twice a day, just to endure the pain the first week or so. But those pills are horribly addictive, so I refused to take them for long and I skipped those pretty fast. I only take regular painkillers if needed now, I have seen too many people addicted to Tramadol.
My heavy painkillers that I skipped pretty fast.
My mom underwent eye surgery and got her eye lenses removed and replaced on both her eyes due to cataract. The whole procedure was done on a single week with multiple hospital visits, a lot of medicine to keep any pressure buildup down and two surgeries, which I attended -even though I was limping around like an idiot and people thought I was the one needing some sort of surgery… My mum is thankfully doing much better now, and is happy, healthy and pain free -and with no side effects of the pressure buildup in her eyes. Her eye lenses were stiff due to the cataract and that left her with a very small “frame” in her eyes, which then blocked the drainage in both her eyes completely when she got the eye drops at her eye doctors, so he could check her eyes, which is normally a routine thing.
The whole thing could have ruined her vision and created chronic glaucoma, which would have impaired her vision a lot.. But she got a clean bill of health and could all finally relax!
I am currently lying in bed, just took a 600mg painkiller to dull the ache in both my knees – one due to kneecap dislocation (patellaluxation) the other due to strain, cause of my inability to walk properly, therefore I lean a lot on my left knee.
I got the Don Joy off after almost a month, I donated it to Africa…. I’m happy to be rid of that thing, and now I have a kneecap support band that is supposed to lock the kneecap in place, until you gain enough muscle to not dislocate the kneecap once more. The situation is honestly horrible, I’m usually the nurse, not the patient! I hate being the vulnerable one, I’m a good nurse but a horrible patient.
Kneecap stabilization band.
Last week (Thursday – 28.11.19) I had what’s called electro therapy, that really sucked… It was supposed to awaken my big muscle in my upper thigh, so it could help me straighten my leg out again. For almost ten whole minutes I had a jolt of electricity every 10 seconds going through my thigh, but no much response at all, only a tiny little visible reaction, I’m supposed to have more electro therapy today, so wish me and my leg luck, I need to see results now!
A borrowed picture of undergoing electro therapy.
I’ll see if I can get some proper pictures of the electro therapy today, maybe even do a whole “how to” on physio for weak knees, it might just help someone else out, which is somehow a bit comforting to know.
I’m going to try and relax a bit now before getting ready for today’s session of pain haha, I’m almost used to the torture by now, but somehow it’s also comforting, I know it needs to hurt to get better, especially when it’s muscles and short tendons! I’m glad that my education have at least prepared me a little for this entire disaster, both my mum and her surgery and also my setback with my knee. I have learned a lot recently, but it’s from another point of view -The patient and the family of the patient.
We are very much at the mercy of our medical staff, one wrong step can make a snowball effect, very much like my mother’s current medical history. It is also human for the medical staff to once in a blue moon make the wrong decisions, and it’s all about your own personal coping mechanisms and about the backup from family and friends that sees you through everything. I for one, found out how cool my brain is during the incidents, and then the all crippling shock of it all that comes afterwards. But we have endured, we have prevailed my family and I.
I hope that year 2020 is going to be a much better year for us, we have had a lot of bad luck this year, not just these two incidents, but in our entire family as well. But we cope and we will get stronger from going through this.
I’m proud of myself for doing what I did during my kneecap dislocation, for stepping up and relocating it myself, for thinking “Damn I don’t want my better half to see my knee like this, this is bad!” -I have no clue as to how I did what I did, but I managed, I have a new sense of respect for myself!
It’s been absolutely crazy this past week.. Or actually these past three weeks! 🤣 – And it will only get crazier…
We have had my three bonus kids / my better half’s three awesome kids, staying here for the past three weeks, and I’ve loved every minute of it! They are here every year for three weeks (we live in Denmark and the kids lives in the UK where my better half is from). We have missed them terribly this year, and it’s been so good to catch up with them and spoil them all rotten.
This year we have been staying for a week at my brothers house, at Lolland – which has been absolutely amazing! So much space and so many rooms, one for each of the kids even! That’s been pretty awesome, and it’s got us thinking.. We need a bigger place, we really do.
My bigsister always sends me a bunch of links to fantastic houses that’s for sale, most of them so expensive, that it would put you in debt for a lifetime! But at the end of week two, whilst having the kids over, my sister managed to send me yet another link, this time it was a house that’s affordable, with the rooms we need and a fairly big and private garden..
We were suspicious really.. Looking at the pictures, wondering which flaws would be the final deal-breaker, but as things progressed, the house just got even more interesting.
We called the estate agent up, and asked for a viewing, and we had a look at it. We weren’t disappointed.. It was as nice as on the pictures and very cozy, it had a feel to it! Best of all, it was huge…
Before we knew it, we made an offer, the offer was bargained with a little, but then accepted and our bank approved of the loan, oh my god I’m just speechless!
My mind is an absolute mess, with so many different emotions, and it comes in waves.. Happy, anxious, giddy, excited, drained, melancholic – the list goes on and on, but most of all, I’m relieved.. Finally a new chapter of our lives are starting, and we are on our way to become house owners!
We are about to sell the apartment now and hopefully it will be a quick sale, for the right price. I bought the place 8 years ago, and we love our little home, but it’s also time for something bigger and we are ready for our forever home now, and I believe that we might have found it ❤️
The following weeks, we will be having a professional photographer snapping pictures of our home, and it will shortly after be up for sale, it’s so surreal! 😱😄
The year 2017 was amazing, it was the year that I finally started my nurses assistant education, the year that I found out how it really felt like to be a nurses assistant and how busy it can be, but also rewarding!
It was the year that my amazing fiancé found work as a tiler and I am so insanely proud of him, he is such a strong man and such a wonderful dad and a fantastic fiancé
This year has been hard work, fun, exciting and down right busy! I found a job as an uneducated carer, so I’m basically working two jobs – one as an intern and one as uneducated, it’s hard, but it’s rewarding, I love helping and caring for people and I can’t wait to go to work again! I wouldn’t have it any other way.. My work is a part of who I am, and I am proud of that!
2017 has been a year of growth for me, a year where I’ve built up my confidence and where I have had so much love and support from my fiancé in almost everything I’ve done! I can’t thank him enough..
It’s also been the year where I’ve finally gotten my drivers license – something I’ve been putting off for forever, because I lived close to everything and never needed to drive. – But now I finally have it, and I’m driving! What’s even better is, I got my moms car to drive in all the time, since she hardly used it, I’m so thankful for that!
My little sister finished her masters degree in IT – I’m such a proud big sis, she is such a brainy girl and I know she will end up becoming someone great, she is just that type of girl. Determined and insanely smart
It’s also been a year of redecorating, where we redid the entire bedroom – newly painted and newly furnitured, now we just want a new bed, and a few bits and bobs, I really love that bedroom now!
2017 has also been all about spending time with my bonus babies, and I miss them dearly right now! They were here the summer of ’17, for three weeks, and I cried horribly when they had to go home! I felt miserable for weeks..
I truly hope that everyone had a wonderful and safe celebration of the new year and that 2018 will be an amazing year, mine can’t be anything but, cause I have them three wonderful bonus babies, my fiancé and my family by my side! I couldn’t wish for anything more from 2017, it’s been the best year I could have imagined!
– And sorry for being so out of touch with the blog, but life got in the way..
Right now is the first time in ages that I have a moment to spare, to sit down, be bored, watch a movie, write my blog and so on. The only thing I have been persistent in updating, is my Instagram! So do take a look, there is a lot of new pictures!
Right now I am relaxing, drinking Cuba watermelon mixed with Carlsberg sport (pop basically) – It’s gorgeous, you guys got to try it if you haven’t! It’s so hot outside, it’s finally spring in Denmark, so I thought it was the perfect drink for the evening – not that I drink a lot, but today just called for it! But while I’m drinking this, I am watching a movie on netflix called ”Safe Haven”, a really good movie I might add, watch it sometime, but I gotta warn ya, its a ”girly movie” as my fiancé would put it. 😉
Tomorrow we are spending time with my family, firing up the grill and having some steaks and sausages, yum! I can’t wait, it’s gonna be awesome! 😛
I am happier than ever in life, I love my fiancé and every day, he makes me happy that I’m with him. It’s corny, but I even love cooking for him. I love spoiling him, making him lunches for work, just anything that makes his life a little easier, and why? Because I love him, just because I simply love him. He makes me smile, laugh and just stronger. I would never have dared starting my education as a Care Assistant if it wasn’t for him. He made me who I am in a way, he patched up a part of me that I had no idea was broken. He have been struggling real hard to find a job here in Denmark, not just any job, but a job as a tiler, and he found it! He is now working as a tiler in a small company and have made some great friends too, that just makes me so happy, I’m insanely proud of him!
Life is just so insanely exciting as a Care Assistant intern. I have tried a lot of things, that even some educated Care Assistants haven’t – or so they told me! 😉
I gave B12 intramuscularly – which means ”injection into the muscle”, that was probably the most intense injection I’ve tried so far! 😮 The needle is huge, or so it seems the first time you give the injection, I was calm on the outside, but inside I was shaking a little.. It went perfectly fine, no bleeding or anything and it went into the muscle perfectly, so I was happy and so was the patient! 😀
I have dealt a lot with insulin injections, their fairly easy, and so is the blood sugar measurements, but their a lot of fun, and its a whole new chapter that’s opening up for me, having to study about it and get into the whole ”fast working insulin and slow working insulin”, it’s so exciting!
I have worked with catheter’s too, observing them, inserting them, rinsing them, changing them and so on. That’s pretty cool too, even tho’ inserting them can be a challenge! No ones alike down there, just sayin’ 😀 haha!
Then I have tried to change an Ostomy, which can be really tricky and also messy, but luckily it weren’t – that time! 😛
I have probably done a lot more, but I have honestly forgotten, because I have been allowed to do so many new things, and I love the fact that I have! I have the best mentor, I can only ever say good things about her, I have to be at this place for 6 months, and I’m not wanting to leave the place at all! ❤ Even tho its way out at the country side, where there is farms and files n’ miles of fields! But it’s just beautiful..
So as you all can read, everything seems to just be working out for us (me and my fiancé), we have struggled a bit, but that’s over now, I can’t wait for the summer vacation, having his kids over, just like last year, I miss them very much. ❤
I hope you guys had as good a day as I have, I couldn’t have hoped for a better day, it was very busy, with a hairdressers appointment, grocery shopping, dog sitting, washing clothes and snapping pictures, but I loved today, every second of it!
Thursday was spent with my family, or most of my family that is! My mom couldn’t come with us but at least I got to spend some time with my dad, Bigsister, nephew, little sister and my amazing fiancé.
We went to a Chinese restaurant called Jin Jiang, it’s very close to the harbor side in Denmark, a cozy place that serves a great buffet! What I love most about that place is the fruit, it’s fresh and tastes amazing, nothing beats really fresh fruit.
They also make some incredible sushi and I adore their deep fried prawns! The pictures above are food from their restaurant. We always chose the buffet and we have never been disappointed, I love eating there and today it was nice, quiet and cozy. Normally it’s mad busy, but luckily not today.
A quick picture of me before we were going out, for a change it’s black and white, I normally don’t like that, I think I look ghostly, but this picture is alright I guess. My hair have grown quite a bit since last year, I mostly just let it be and only recently I got my ends trimmed, which wasn’t much, so it’s become pretty long and it’s a bit strange having it this long, but also nice for a change!
I had a pretty good evening today, I am lucky to have a big family to share my life with, even though it can be difficult at times, chaotic and even stressful, but their always there for me and if things go south, I am blessed to have my fiancé who always seems to know what to say or what to do. You don’t chose your family, but I got quite lucky with mine.
I hope you all have spent “little Friday” / Thursday in good company, doing something productive or just a relaxed!