Perspective

Hi everyone!

Hope y’all had an awesome couple of months and are enjoying the early signs of spring – I sure am here in Denmark!

As I’ve gotten older, I realize you get another perspective on things, a maturity that wasn’t there just maybe four years ago, it just sorta snook up on me really.. 

I have since I started working as a carehelper and then intern and now assistant intern, gotten a whole new view on life, it sounds corny I know, but life changed. I can’t tell you the exact time it did change tho, maybe it was when I cared for my first terminal citizen, maybe it was when I saw someone who had passed away for the first time or maybe it’s the countless times I have held someone while they cried for whatever reason. – I just know that I grew up.

I have learned to cherish my healthy body, feel blessed by my working brain, to appreciate my family and friends and to have patience and also most importantly empathy, not something everyone is born with, but something you need, if you want to be in the line of work im in. It’s something I know my mom have passed on to me, she was a carehelper herself, (she just retired) and I have grown to respect and admire her more and more through the years, I am so deeply proud of my mother.

I wish that I found my calling a lot sooner in life, cause now I just want to start my career and to start working – not something you hear everyone say I guess, but that’s how I feel. 

As I mentioned earlier, somehow I got more mature, and every step towards my education seems like it’s making me more sure of the choice of career I’ve taken. Everything just seems to work out for me and I am taking all my classes very seriously. It’s like I live and breathe for this, in some sort of way. I love that, I love the adult me, the mature woman I have turned into.

I find myself in situations, where I act very differently to how I would have acted when I was just four or five years younger, it’s insanely strange for me, but I also like it. I’m getting taken seriously when I talk about things conceening my field of work and in some way I’m proud but in others, I’m baffled! I still feel very young and very green, like I have a lot to learn, but I’m getting there and I’m willing to do everything it takes, to be a great assistant, it means a lot to me.

I love my line of work! ❤

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My exam and my results

I have been biting my nails for two weeks straight, it has been a battle and I have had so much stress these past weeks that I can’t even begin to explain it, but its been all worth it!

Exam-Word-Map-flatAt the 20th of June I went to draw my exam case in science. Basically, what we did, was go and pick between 6 cases, I picked for us, cause we were so nervous and I just snatched the first and best exam case there was! Number two, my lucky number!

We got the case, sat down, opened it, read it up, found out what subjects to weigh highest and then we went home, we had 24 hours to write and research and use our textbooks, I wrote a lot of Que cards and had with me.

 

Basically the subjects I had chosen to weigh highest was:

  • Enzymes in the body, how it works and what protein, fat and carbs gets broken down to.
  • Enzymes in the dishwashing soap and how it works on a theoretical level.
  • Enzymes in  washing powder and how it works on a theoretical level.
  • Different types of bacteria, where they thrive, what kills them and how to prevent being infected with the different types of bacteria.
  • Atoms, covalent bindings, ion bindings and what the octet rule and the doublet rule is, and how to calculate how many neutrons there is in an atom.
  • Fluid calculations and also extra fluid calculation when you have a fever and a calculation for what fluids she should drink if her BMI was on a healthy normal scale.
  • BMI calculation and why elderly is better off having a higher BMI, then a BMI calculation of what type of BMI the citizen should have had.
  • Mold and why it’s so dangerous, how it thrives and what you can do to prevent it.
  • Nutrition and protein drinks, how protein binds fat in your body and why a Y-plate is such a good choice.
  • A carbs, protein and fat calculation, how much should a citizen eat if they had to gain weight or keep their weight.

That was basically what I went in and talked about!

I went in the examination room the 21st of June and scored an A+ on the English grade scale / 12 on the Danish grade scale, I was so nervous, but the examination went beyond what I had ever dreamt of. This was defiantly the exam i dreaded the most, but I did it! The censor told me that I was a star, that was something completely new, I teared up and I couldn’t help but cry – happy tears of course! I have never been praised so much in my entire life, he was the best censor I have ever had. I will never forget the praise he gave me, I will take it with me in my further education and I will be calmer, tell myself that I can do this and that I am clever, that I can do calculations

Thursday the 30th of June, I went and had my last exam, this was a ”pass or not pass” grade we got, we had half a week to make a case, based on the subjects that was in the book, it was our ”basic course” that we had to pass, everyone needed to pass this, only a few had to do the science exam, because others had a different education background and had this previously in their education.

I went in the 30th as the second student, and I talked way too long, but was told by the censor, that she hoped I went all the way, and that I took my nurse’s assistant education too, but I want the nurse too, so I have quite a long way to go still, but I’m proud and relived that I got so amazing grades!

For the first time ever, I feel confident that this education and this line of work is just right! I have chosen the right path.

Everyone out there working hard on their exams right now, so much good luck to you! I know how the anticipation nervousness and butterflies feel like! You can do it!

See you guys online! x

Exam preps

I have thought a lot about this post, also because its been a while since I last posted something on my blog, I have missed writing a lot to be honest and I finally thought of the right post to write, so all of my followers knows why I am a bit quiet on my blog and maybe a little stressed – but in a good and healthy way none the less!

I have been in school the last couple of months, I have had an introduction course to the caregiver education and I have been studying like mad and enjoying life and all its ups and downs. I have not had many downs though, I have worked very hard and I have fewer weekends to myself and my fiancé than I used to have in the beginning of the education course.

I have started working as an uneducated carer at the elderlyhome I was an intern at, I work the weekends that’s available and sometimes its many, sometimes none, it always seems to change and that’s just fine with me. I have been on whats called ”SU” – education benefits in a more simple term I guess you can call it, that’s something we are very lucky to receive here in Denmark, but its a very slim pay, with hardly any money to spend on anything but rent, so I took this job due to finances, but also because I want to keep in touch with the very first place I worked and I have loved that very much.

So I am working during most weekends, at least once a day every weekend, sometimes the entire weekend, that is very giving but also hard, cause of the very little free time I get for myself. This weekend I have two morning shifts, that will be my entire weekend gone, but its okay, I know a lot of people work a lot harder than me and I feel blessed because I have this job to rely on, while I study, it has been a lifesaver and my boss was an angel to give me this opportunity.

All of May have been a real struggle to find an internship. Due to the new education reform, we now have to find our own internships, instead of just getting them appointed to us, they said in mid May on the radio (Danish radio), that it’s very few that get an internship nowadays as a carer or as an assistant nurse. Let me tell you guys, its been a real struggle.. Hard work and a lot of stress have been built up in the month of May, having to focus on education and paying attention to what the teachers taught us, while also having to go to interviews and writing applications for internships – that’s been horrible! But in the end, all my hard work has payed off, I was cheeky and called up a kommune and asked if they could help me and get me an interview, it worked! I had an interview with them, and after about two week I got an internship with them, at a care home close to where I live and after August I no longer have to stress about how many shifts I get at work in the weekends, cause I will get adult internship salary, something that not many have been given, even though we thought that we were all eligible for that. It is a complicated and impossible system, but I thought you just had to be 25 or more to receive adult salary, but unfortunately not. I do not have the answer to this even now, I just know I was one of the few with enough work experience and the proper age. I do think a lot about what this means to my classmates, but I also know that their going to be amazing at being caregivers and together we can help support our elders and disabled.

I have gotten a lot of friends and acquaintances at this education, it has been an amazing experience for me and I would do it all over again, I feel a lot more confident than I did when I first started and now I got some amazing tools to take with me to use during my internship.

The exams are creeping up, next month – July to be exact. I need to have my exam in this main course, so it’s just a regular main exam and then another one in biology / science, which we in Denmark call ”Nature subject”, I’m mostly nervous about the last exam mentioned, cause that is some information you need to remember by heart, to me that is hard. Math has never been my strong side and there is a bit of math in this subject too – but it all comes down to what stuff you get about at the exam and that is something you draw the day before, so you will in total have 24 hours at each exam. I will just do my best, cause that’s all I can do really.

I hope for the very best outcome for all my classmates, cause they have all showed such interest and passion for this education, they all deserve to pass with honors. We need carers that love what they do, just like my classmates do every day, when we have discussions about ethics, moral and dilemmas. We have had some amazing cases that we have worked on and that we have had to discuss in class. In our line of work, we get met by a lot of choices and dilemmas, where our morals will be tested, so far I think everyone have passed with flying colours.

So to wrap it up, good luck to my classmates, to the ones out there reading this post, thats also studying for exams and for the ones looking for internships, you can do it!

With love, Miamariah! x

Addiction

This post is about my biggest drug, Cola and what it’s like to be a caffeine addict. I am speaking about a personal low for me, being an addict is never fun, even if it’s only caffeine – it’s still horrible.

  
I cannot begin to explain how horrible this addiction is for me. Every time I eat anything, I would think “Ah a glass of Cola would be great with this!” And I would go and get one. I never said no to a glass of Cola, I would honestly panic if I only had two bottles of cola left in the fridge.

Christmas 2015 it really hit me, how addicted I actually was, I spend Christmas in England with my fiancé and his family and for four days, I had no Cola what so ever. I am telling you guys, the withdraw symptoms was horrific! I can’t start to describe how my body felt, the only way to actually describe it is like you are on a serious detox – a cold turkey, from a serious drug, not just caffeine.

My symptoms were:

  • Nausea
  • Dizziness
  • Migraines 
  • Tremors
  • Tiredness
  • Insomnia
  • Anger issues
  • No appetite

I felt horrible, it was so unreal and scary, I hated every minute and I can’t believe that it was that bad. 

It started the first day with a mild headache that I took some tablets for, I didn’t think about drinking Cola then, we were busy with life and Christmas at this point! Then it escalated at the second day to migraines and no pills could cure them, it was very bad! Shortly after I started having these dizzy moments, where I would think “wow I need something to drink now” and by then – I thought of Cola, and figured out something was very wrong. My fiancé also said it was withdrawal symptoms and tried to support me as much as possible. The third day I was a wreck! I was shaking, couldn’t concentrate, didn’t feel like eating anything, I was nauseous and tired but had trouble sleeping properly the night before, I was shaking too, I was short tempered and I felt so panicked. Day four was a bit better, still a headache, but not the migraine type, I still didn’t sleep good, I was so tired and worn and I was dizzy again.

My fiancé got very worried after this whole thing and so did I. I then decided that it was best for me to kick the habit as fast as possible.

When I got home I drank Cola again, it was stupid and I regret it, feels like I let myself down again. I drank a lot again, it was almost the only thing I had to drink on an entire day.

My fiancé talked to me about it, and I realized what I was doing was insane, dangerous and very stupid! I researched it and got so much information about Cola that it freaked me out. I then wanted to seriously stop drinking it and try to get it out of my system for good.

My fiancé was so supportive and told me to get something to drink to replace the Cola, and asked what I liked about the drink – I said the bubbles and the sweetness, and we decided that a water with mild sparkles and taste or a pop with no caffeine would be a good idea to replace it, to make me used to no caffeine and then slowly go from no pop and then water with sparkles and taste, to just regular water.

I chose 7up and a sparkling water with taste, none of them with caffeine and the water with no added sugar. So that’s what I’m trying to drink now. I drink as little Cola as possible – when I have very bad symptoms, I have a tiny glass.

This is the sparkling water with taste I drink now

This is the sparkling water with taste

 
Day one I had four glasses of Coke, day two I had three glasses, day three I was down to two glasses, this is day four and I had no Cola yet and I feel okay, not amazing but I’m okay. I have a headache and I feel worn, but I am okay.

I hope I can help someone else out there reading this post. I have had a hard time quitting and I still do. I haven’t quit completely yet, and I feel like a drug addict! I am scared of the symptoms and scared of what this drink have or can do to my body and my life span. I am trying to quit, I am struggling but I won’t stop trying.

Have you guys ever had an addiction? Cigarets, drugs, caffeine or so on? Have you quit or tried to? I’d like some good advice, it could be that it could help me even more!

See you online! x

Studying illnesses 

As you all know, I want to be a nurses assistant – and from there, I want either the nurses education or to be a social worker. I always loved making a difference and helping people, being supportive and caring. I am a kind person, always have been, I love that people depend on me!

Now I am researching different illnesses and trying to gather as much knowledge as possible, before school starts! 

So far I have researched:

  • Paralyzations 
  • Diabetes 
  • Bladder infections
  • Dementia 
  • osteoporosis
  • Cancer (mainly brain / lungs)
  • Terminal care
  • Depression
  • Anxiety
  • Brain damage 

These are all illnesses I have experienced while working at the elderly home, and read a lot to aqquire knowledge about these different illnesses so I could help the citizen in the best way possible. 

If you guys have some illness in mind that you think would be good for me to know more about, then do tell me, cause I would love to know more about these kind of things before I start my school, so I at least know a little to begin with. It will be a big part of my work life to be able to recognize symptoms if they occur.

See you online guys! x

Life, love and the future!

Lately I am trying to get ready for my education and trying to get our home clean and good looking! Strange – but true none the less..

Let’s just be honest, I have never ever been the stay at home wife kind of woman! I am messy and a typical “oh where did I put that stupid remote, I know it’s here somewhere” kind of person, everywhere I seem to go, I leave a trail of mess behind me, and I don’t mind much, but I got older and more aware of it, and I am actually changing – who knew?! 😂

I never thought that day would come, where I keep thinking that I need to do the laundry else it would pile up, or I would remember to put all my make-up back in perfect order, else it would look cluttered and messy, but lately I do. (Or ever since my fiancé moved in!) My fiancé have had a very good influence on me I have to say, he has made me see how lovely our home can look when it’s clean and organized and he is good at reminding me to just put things back after using them, it’s much easier than running around cleaning at the last minute, before guests arrive, or when you get too annoyed at the clutter!

I think being engaged to him has somehow made me more grown up, more determined and less messy, and yeah it sounds so cliché, but he makes me into a better person. 

I make little to do lists now, I make grocery lists, I make sure to always plan ahead on shopping so we never need anything badly and I feel amazing for doing so! Who the hell am I and where is Mia?! 😜

We have started to sort out food, so we do a “cooking list” where we write what food we wanna cook and on what day, it’s gotten so much easier to prepare meals and shop for them, that’s the God honest truth.. Thank god for lists! (Oh dear I’ve become like my mother!) 

So right now I am passing time at home, waiting for the 29th of February, by cleaning and making my little “stay at home wife” lists! I am not perfect at it, but I’m getting there.

Do you guys have any strange lists you make? I am thinking I might need more lists in my life, cause it keeps you organized and I want 2016 to be the year of organization and calm, and my lists makes me more calm and a lot less stressy and forgetful – who dosnt what that?

Here is a few pictures of our home right now, we are constantly redecorating, because we wish for a different look in our bedroom and living room right now – we have started to save up for a new bed as we speak, cause the one we have now is terrible!

   
Our new Danish designer table, lamp and chairs! The chairs are pretty well known in Denmark and are called the 7 chair from Arne Jacobsen, the table is a Fritz Hansen and the lamp is from Fritz Hansen too. Now we just need some more pictures up on the walls, but it starting to look very cozy already.

 

My fiancé changed the paintings a few months ago, so now my bedroom screen painting is in the living room and vice versa, it really suits it a lot better! The lamps are old Japanese lamps and my sofa is white leather – I know white, but I love it. It looks so good now after we got the floors sanded down in the hallway and the living room.

Our engagement

We got engaged the 9th of May 2015

My fiancé proposed in May, when he moved here, he wanted to spend the rest of his life with me, and I could think of nothing more amazing, so I said yes. We want to get married at some point, but haven’t set a specific date yet, cause 2015 have been so insanely busy, and 2016 will probably be very busy too, but all we know is, we don’t want anything huge, we don’t want it inside of a church, and we only want our closest family with us to watch the ceremoni and then elope to somewhere warm and fantastic for two week, and have our honeymoon. That’s a goal for us!

The ring, as you can see is here, and its from Pandora, a Danish brand, which means a lot for us, cause its so popular in England and then its Danish, so its a symbolic thing and I love the classic design, he saw it and just instantly knew that it was me, he have chosen perfectly and I can only say, that I’m spoiled rotten! The pictures are from May and June, the top one is from June, and the bottom one is from the day we got engaged, the 9th of May.

The day he traveled here, to move in with me permanently, he asked me to marry him, in our kitchen, I could clearly see how worried he was, it was cute, but in the end, he asked me, and I had tears in my eyes when I said yes. So we have decided to spend our life together!

He makes me a better me, I am stronger with him by my side, I set so many goals for myself that I never thought I would accomplish, but I did.

It almost broke my heart when I in August got told, that I did not have the required grades in math that I needed, even though I passed my oral exam, I did not pass my written exam in 9th grade, it was a very stressful time for me, and I got told that I had to pass a written math exam, so I knew I had to hire a tutor and start studying very hard, but he was there the entire time, and told me to fight for it, to never quit, because he could see how much I wanted this, and he was the one who gave me the confidence to set myself the goals.

I got a math tutor, I studied so hard and worked too, it was some hard months, but I went to the exam and I passed my math exam, I got into my education and I have spend six month working where I wanted so badly to work, I accomplished that, with his support and my own determination. I can thank him for a lot of things, and I have and will keep doing, he makes me strong enough to fight for the things I want. I can do anything with him by my side.