Life lately

I think I might have neglected my blog a bit.. Or actually quite a lot.

I guess this blog is more a diary than a famous blog, where everyone comments or likes what I write, or buy what I blog about, in the end, I don’t blog for followers, likes or comments – I blog for myself, so I can look back on all the written pages one day and say I might have grown, evolved or learned something in life, that’s worth being proud of. Us humans, we love evolving, acquiring new skill sets and setting new goals, and I guess this is what I use my blog for mostly, keeping track of my goals and how I have evolved, that’s what I love about blogging, I can always go back, and find fond memories, or lessons I learned, I love that.

Alas, I have been neglecting my blog, but it’s due to life and studies – so I guess in some way I’m excused?

The other evening, (Late Sunday evening the 5th of Nov), I got spooked, reminded of my own mortality in a way, that I guess most people would very much hate. I treat citizens every day, with severe illnesses, but to all of a sudden be in need of treatment and care myself, that was truly nerve wrecking beyond belief.

It started with my better half, wanting to get our home in tip top shape, so we decided to throw old stuff away, and I guess I should have been more careful, since I’ve now been tested and I know I’m allergic to dust and dust mites, but I wasn’t. How young and naive, but very true, I’m 29, not 89 for gods sakes, I’m invincible – untouchable, or so I thought.. After several days of throwing old dusty stuff away, I fell ill with a throat infection, that I then got antibiotics for, but I kept on going – typical me really.

I loved the whole idea of throwing things out we didn’t need and sorting things out and finding new ways to place furniture, but then my nose started acting up, it was itching, I was sneezing all the time and it would run constantly, it was living hell! Everyone with allergies, that sneeze when allergic, they know what I say by “it tires you out”, cause sneezing every five to ten minutes, believe it or not, it makes you worn.. But again, I thought I was just fine, that it was a side effect to my throat infection – which I was on antibiotics for.

As the Sunday passed, my better half had dusted and cleaned out the entire bedroom, how great is he?! I had retired and found myself a bit poorly, more than I should have been when I was a few days in to my antibiotics treatment.

We decided at about 23:30 to go to bed, when I went to lie down, my breathing became very troubled, at first I just shrugged it off, until my better half told me to ring a doctor (the simple number 1813 in Denmark), it’s basically lifesavers in scrubs! Awake at all times and there to take your call, no matter how dumb your question about your health is. Thank god for them!

I waited about 5 min, then talked to a nurse, who decided that I needed to be patched through to a doctor, and he found that it would be worth a trip to the emergency room – so I went, but not totally convinced that I had to.. I still thought it might just be nothing! But my fiancé – bless him, kept saying I should go, so I went, and told them the entire thing.

I got seen to quite fast, which is rare, cause an emergency room is always busy, always someone who has it worse than you, but I guess not this time..

They took my peak flow (my exhaling breath capacity basically), it was 150 at tops, its normally 300 – 400 ish – still I thought it was nothing. My breathing (kinda since I had tried to lie down and sleep) was so bad and I sounded like an old kettle trying to boil, they took my blood pressure, and they saw i was clearly hyperventilating to catch my breath.

In the end they decided to commit me to the emergency room – and I just kept saying I was fine, I think more to myself than to them, cause I couldn’t be ill, it just won’t do!

It finally dawned on me, how bad it was, when I was lying in a hospital bed, getting treatment through an IV. Antihistamine straight into my bloodstream. And to make matters worse, I got a mask to help me breathe, with a drug to dilate my lungs and make room for the air, and make the kettle sounds stop.

Everything went so fast, I remember telling the nurse – like a numpty – that I didn’t need anything IV, I was fine, but she didn’t listen, bless her! I could have gone home from there, still feeling horrible, not having had the treatment my body needed.

I got the IV done, that was scary thing in itself, cause I’m always the one holding the needle, not the one getting the pointy end of it… I must say, she did an awesome job, no bruises, swelling or blood, and in no time, she was back with vials of antihistamine and adrenal cortex hormone, (I had to look that up, hope it’s spelled right? It’s the word in Danish for “binyrebarkhormon”) I don’t know what would have happened if I hadn’t listened to my fiancé or stayed at the hospital that night, but they said that they wanted to keep me for minimum 6 hours for observation, which I decided was necessary, since I obviously didn’t know my allergies that well to evaluate on them myself. I stayed that night, on my own, in a hospital room with two other patients (We did have privacy though!)

The side effects of the mask, the adrenal cortex hormone and the antihistamines made me feel loopy, in a constant haze and I had quite a bit of heart throbbing, so due to that, I got almost no sleep, and the sleep I got, was with me waking up, not knowing where I was, due to drugs and just me being tired.

When I got released from the hospital, I was so worn and still very loopy, like I’d been out drinking all night. I decided that morning to pay my doctor a visit, so I got an hour of sleep, which was constantly interrupted by me waking up, not knowing where I was – awesome..

My doctor decided that I needed to rule out asthma, as my sister has asthma, and it could very well be that I had that too, which would make my allergies more severe and hard to get through. Wednesday I will go through an asthma test, and I need to make an appointment with a specialist in lungs, allergies and asthma, my doctor said that he was the best of the best, so I’m expecting good results. He also took a look at my current antihistamines, and said to throw them out, they wouldn’t work what so ever, and then he prescribed me 180 mg ones instead, it sounds like an awful lot.. But if it works, then I’m happy!

All in all, my health has been dropping severely this past week(s), and I have learned to listen more to my body and what it’s trying to tell me. Being young(ish) doesn’t mean that your immortal. I just need rest now, cause on day three (Tuesday), I just feel worn out, a feeling I never had before.

Thanks for reading along, those of you who got through this wall of text.

Now it’s just a waiting game, a game I’m quite bad at to be honest!

One single advice from me, that I’ve learned the hard way, would be, if you feel off, it’s probably because something’s wrong! Listen to your body for gods sakes! Don’t listen to people who says it’s probably nothing, they aren’t you, they can’t feel what you feel. Be persistent, in the end that gets results.

See you online x

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Gonna be a long day..

”Flexibile learning”

That is what they call it, sitting in class without any teacher, at an adult education facility, its silly, all those modern smartass ways of learning, and our teachers are caught in the middle of all of this, saying they agree with us, but can’t do anything. It’s the politicians that think it’s a great way to run the classrooms, once a week, a Thursday for us, and we are sat there, all alone for hours, getting a tiny bit of homework, that we do in about half an hour and then we can stare into the wall, or get unattendance if we leave.. Decisions, decisions.. *sigh*

I feel the teachers though, it must be horrible to work like this, to be professional and having to deal with these ”clever” politicians and the fact that they know nothing about teaching or how students learns and how we thrive in a classroom. I wish it was different, I wish we had normal classes and would learn something in these hours, its important to me, it really is. I am dealing with people every day, and I need to be sharp and informed, to know what to do in each situation that can appear, but the teachers are doing their abselute best with what they have been given, thats for sure, I love the teachers, but damn the system is terrible. I wish that the politicians would spend a month in a students or teachers shoes, and then create new and suitable ideas for learning and thriving.

We do learn a lot at my school, but can’t help but wonder.. How much would we learn, if we did not have this ”flexible learning” every Thursday? How ahead would we be? How much extra could we learn? – It’s worth a thought really.

Hope all you guys have a lovely Thursday, I will try, even though I’m tired and am moody cause of this ”flexible” way of learning lol..

See you online x

My exam and my results

I have been biting my nails for two weeks straight, it has been a battle and I have had so much stress these past weeks that I can’t even begin to explain it, but its been all worth it!

Exam-Word-Map-flatAt the 20th of June I went to draw my exam case in science. Basically, what we did, was go and pick between 6 cases, I picked for us, cause we were so nervous and I just snatched the first and best exam case there was! Number two, my lucky number!

We got the case, sat down, opened it, read it up, found out what subjects to weigh highest and then we went home, we had 24 hours to write and research and use our textbooks, I wrote a lot of Que cards and had with me.

 

Basically the subjects I had chosen to weigh highest was:

  • Enzymes in the body, how it works and what protein, fat and carbs gets broken down to.
  • Enzymes in the dishwashing soap and how it works on a theoretical level.
  • Enzymes in  washing powder and how it works on a theoretical level.
  • Different types of bacteria, where they thrive, what kills them and how to prevent being infected with the different types of bacteria.
  • Atoms, covalent bindings, ion bindings and what the octet rule and the doublet rule is, and how to calculate how many neutrons there is in an atom.
  • Fluid calculations and also extra fluid calculation when you have a fever and a calculation for what fluids she should drink if her BMI was on a healthy normal scale.
  • BMI calculation and why elderly is better off having a higher BMI, then a BMI calculation of what type of BMI the citizen should have had.
  • Mold and why it’s so dangerous, how it thrives and what you can do to prevent it.
  • Nutrition and protein drinks, how protein binds fat in your body and why a Y-plate is such a good choice.
  • A carbs, protein and fat calculation, how much should a citizen eat if they had to gain weight or keep their weight.

That was basically what I went in and talked about!

I went in the examination room the 21st of June and scored an A+ on the English grade scale / 12 on the Danish grade scale, I was so nervous, but the examination went beyond what I had ever dreamt of. This was defiantly the exam i dreaded the most, but I did it! The censor told me that I was a star, that was something completely new, I teared up and I couldn’t help but cry – happy tears of course! I have never been praised so much in my entire life, he was the best censor I have ever had. I will never forget the praise he gave me, I will take it with me in my further education and I will be calmer, tell myself that I can do this and that I am clever, that I can do calculations

Thursday the 30th of June, I went and had my last exam, this was a ”pass or not pass” grade we got, we had half a week to make a case, based on the subjects that was in the book, it was our ”basic course” that we had to pass, everyone needed to pass this, only a few had to do the science exam, because others had a different education background and had this previously in their education.

I went in the 30th as the second student, and I talked way too long, but was told by the censor, that she hoped I went all the way, and that I took my nurse’s assistant education too, but I want the nurse too, so I have quite a long way to go still, but I’m proud and relived that I got so amazing grades!

For the first time ever, I feel confident that this education and this line of work is just right! I have chosen the right path.

Everyone out there working hard on their exams right now, so much good luck to you! I know how the anticipation nervousness and butterflies feel like! You can do it!

See you guys online! x

My day in pictures

A day out with my dad, iced coffee at Baresso, with a chocolate scones, Pandora was visited and I got another charm, this one was from my dad, the one I linked below, so now these are the charms that I have on my bracelet.

  
    

   
   

It was nice spending some time alone with my dad, he picked the charm, I think it’s really cute and I am pretty spoiled, I really needed a father / daughter day and I think it was nice to finally spend some real time together just talking. 💕

Am gonna cook a very nice meal for my fiancé tonight, I love cooking actually, I find it relaxing and creative. 

Right now I am waiting for him to come home, so we can enjoy the weekend and Valentine’s Day together this weekend, we are not making a big deal out of it, just a nice meal and candles, I will make sure to spoil him though, he deserves that! 

Hope you all have an amazing day, see you online! xx

Addiction

This post is about my biggest drug, Cola and what it’s like to be a caffeine addict. I am speaking about a personal low for me, being an addict is never fun, even if it’s only caffeine – it’s still horrible.

  
I cannot begin to explain how horrible this addiction is for me. Every time I eat anything, I would think “Ah a glass of Cola would be great with this!” And I would go and get one. I never said no to a glass of Cola, I would honestly panic if I only had two bottles of cola left in the fridge.

Christmas 2015 it really hit me, how addicted I actually was, I spend Christmas in England with my fiancé and his family and for four days, I had no Cola what so ever. I am telling you guys, the withdraw symptoms was horrific! I can’t start to describe how my body felt, the only way to actually describe it is like you are on a serious detox – a cold turkey, from a serious drug, not just caffeine.

My symptoms were:

  • Nausea
  • Dizziness
  • Migraines 
  • Tremors
  • Tiredness
  • Insomnia
  • Anger issues
  • No appetite

I felt horrible, it was so unreal and scary, I hated every minute and I can’t believe that it was that bad. 

It started the first day with a mild headache that I took some tablets for, I didn’t think about drinking Cola then, we were busy with life and Christmas at this point! Then it escalated at the second day to migraines and no pills could cure them, it was very bad! Shortly after I started having these dizzy moments, where I would think “wow I need something to drink now” and by then – I thought of Cola, and figured out something was very wrong. My fiancé also said it was withdrawal symptoms and tried to support me as much as possible. The third day I was a wreck! I was shaking, couldn’t concentrate, didn’t feel like eating anything, I was nauseous and tired but had trouble sleeping properly the night before, I was shaking too, I was short tempered and I felt so panicked. Day four was a bit better, still a headache, but not the migraine type, I still didn’t sleep good, I was so tired and worn and I was dizzy again.

My fiancé got very worried after this whole thing and so did I. I then decided that it was best for me to kick the habit as fast as possible.

When I got home I drank Cola again, it was stupid and I regret it, feels like I let myself down again. I drank a lot again, it was almost the only thing I had to drink on an entire day.

My fiancé talked to me about it, and I realized what I was doing was insane, dangerous and very stupid! I researched it and got so much information about Cola that it freaked me out. I then wanted to seriously stop drinking it and try to get it out of my system for good.

My fiancé was so supportive and told me to get something to drink to replace the Cola, and asked what I liked about the drink – I said the bubbles and the sweetness, and we decided that a water with mild sparkles and taste or a pop with no caffeine would be a good idea to replace it, to make me used to no caffeine and then slowly go from no pop and then water with sparkles and taste, to just regular water.

I chose 7up and a sparkling water with taste, none of them with caffeine and the water with no added sugar. So that’s what I’m trying to drink now. I drink as little Cola as possible – when I have very bad symptoms, I have a tiny glass.

This is the sparkling water with taste I drink now

This is the sparkling water with taste

 
Day one I had four glasses of Coke, day two I had three glasses, day three I was down to two glasses, this is day four and I had no Cola yet and I feel okay, not amazing but I’m okay. I have a headache and I feel worn, but I am okay.

I hope I can help someone else out there reading this post. I have had a hard time quitting and I still do. I haven’t quit completely yet, and I feel like a drug addict! I am scared of the symptoms and scared of what this drink have or can do to my body and my life span. I am trying to quit, I am struggling but I won’t stop trying.

Have you guys ever had an addiction? Cigarets, drugs, caffeine or so on? Have you quit or tried to? I’d like some good advice, it could be that it could help me even more!

See you online! x

Studying illnesses 

As you all know, I want to be a nurses assistant – and from there, I want either the nurses education or to be a social worker. I always loved making a difference and helping people, being supportive and caring. I am a kind person, always have been, I love that people depend on me!

Now I am researching different illnesses and trying to gather as much knowledge as possible, before school starts! 

So far I have researched:

  • Paralyzations 
  • Diabetes 
  • Bladder infections
  • Dementia 
  • osteoporosis
  • Cancer (mainly brain / lungs)
  • Terminal care
  • Depression
  • Anxiety
  • Brain damage 

These are all illnesses I have experienced while working at the elderly home, and read a lot to aqquire knowledge about these different illnesses so I could help the citizen in the best way possible. 

If you guys have some illness in mind that you think would be good for me to know more about, then do tell me, cause I would love to know more about these kind of things before I start my school, so I at least know a little to begin with. It will be a big part of my work life to be able to recognize symptoms if they occur.

See you online guys! x

My daily make up removers!

Ever used a make up remover who was real terrible? You had to scrub and scrub and nothing happened? – Not the case with these two babies! 

Garnier Eye Make-Up remover and Garnier Cleansing Wipes

Garnier Eye Make-Up remover that has extra lash care and Garnier Cleansing Wipes where rinsing your face after use is not even needed


I love these two products from Garnier! No scrubbing, no sore skin, no dry skin, no redness or irritation! It gently removes the make-up and leaves your skin feeling fresh and ready for bed or whatever you might have on the schedule for the day. I think these two are the best products I ever used, and I have used some pretty expensive and high end products!
What products are you guys using? It’s always great to hear what you guys thinks works!

See you online guys!