The last few months..

So I’ve been up to a lot of stuff these past few months, most of them quite bad experiences.

I ended up dislocating my kneecap early in the morning 20.10.19 whilst in the bathroom and the feeling of it all was so intense, having to yell my better half’s name across the apartment to get help, and him running to me, that was scary. I then told him to go get my phone so I could call emergency services and then I relocated my kneecap myself while he wasn’t in view, and I remember thinking that he shouldn’t see this and that I wanted to spare him for it… I’m kinda happy that I could do that myself, so I didn’t need the hospital staff to do it, but I cannot describe the actual pain of dislocating a kneecap, it’s insane.

The first picture is a few hours after the dislocation and relocation of my kneecap.

My right knee a few hours after the dislocation.

As if that weren’t enough, my mum was rushed to the ER due to her eyes, she had pressure build up, due to dialated pupils, she had been to see an eye doctor who had given her some eye drops to examine her eyes and she had a very bad reaction.

The pressure in both her eyes was at max buildup at 77, that is insanely dangerous and not healthy at all for your eyes or your brain for that matter, due to the pressure buildup being located behind the eye sockets and therefore also close to the brain.

Circles = circulation cut off

The last few months has been pure hell, I haven’t been able to walk much due to my insanely swollen knee – no bruising though! I had to go on sick pay and postpone my internship too, which sucks so much!

I am doing physiotherapy exorcises every day at home, and I’m also attending this group workout session every Monday morning from 8 – 9, so I can get my leg back to normal.

To be honest, I had my leg in a Don Joy brace for almost a full month, with a 30 degree bend as my only movement, so I lost a lot of muscle in my leg and also my tendons have shortened, first I couldn’t bend my leg at all, but now it’s mainly straightening my leg that’s impossible, hence why I can’t walk properly, it just sucks.. I’m dead scared of dislocating it again, the pain was so unreal and intense.. But there is like a 30% possibility of this happening again, so I need to always keep working on my legs and gain muscle to support my kneecap, so it won’t happen again.

My Don Joy brace

I was on some heavy painkillers, Tramadol 100mg x3 a day, that dose I honestly didn’t even take! I took half, which is 50mg, but only once or twice a day, just to endure the pain the first week or so. But those pills are horribly addictive, so I refused to take them for long and I skipped those pretty fast. I only take regular painkillers if needed now, I have seen too many people addicted to Tramadol.

My heavy painkillers that I skipped pretty fast.

My mom underwent eye surgery and got her eye lenses removed and replaced on both her eyes due to cataract. The whole procedure was done on a single week with multiple hospital visits, a lot of medicine to keep any pressure buildup down and two surgeries, which I attended -even though I was limping around like an idiot and people thought I was the one needing some sort of surgery… My mum is thankfully doing much better now, and is happy, healthy and pain free -and with no side effects of the pressure buildup in her eyes. Her eye lenses were stiff due to the cataract and that left her with a very small “frame” in her eyes, which then blocked the drainage in both her eyes completely when she got the eye drops at her eye doctors, so he could check her eyes, which is normally a routine thing.

The whole thing could have ruined her vision and created chronic glaucoma, which would have impaired her vision a lot.. But she got a clean bill of health and could all finally relax!

Glaucoma explained.

I am currently lying in bed, just took a 600mg painkiller to dull the ache in both my knees – one due to kneecap dislocation (patellaluxation) the other due to strain, cause of my inability to walk properly, therefore I lean a lot on my left knee.

I got the Don Joy off after almost a month, I donated it to Africa…. I’m happy to be rid of that thing, and now I have a kneecap support band that is supposed to lock the kneecap in place, until you gain enough muscle to not dislocate the kneecap once more. The situation is honestly horrible, I’m usually the nurse, not the patient! I hate being the vulnerable one, I’m a good nurse but a horrible patient.

Kneecap stabilization band.

Last week (Thursday – 28.11.19) I had what’s called electro therapy, that really sucked… It was supposed to awaken my big muscle in my upper thigh, so it could help me straighten my leg out again. For almost ten whole minutes I had a jolt of electricity every 10 seconds going through my thigh, but no much response at all, only a tiny little visible reaction, I’m supposed to have more electro therapy today, so wish me and my leg luck, I need to see results now!

A borrowed picture of undergoing electro therapy.

I’ll see if I can get some proper pictures of the electro therapy today, maybe even do a whole “how to” on physio for weak knees, it might just help someone else out, which is somehow a bit comforting to know.

I’m going to try and relax a bit now before getting ready for today’s session of pain haha, I’m almost used to the torture by now, but somehow it’s also comforting, I know it needs to hurt to get better, especially when it’s muscles and short tendons! I’m glad that my education have at least prepared me a little for this entire disaster, both my mum and her surgery and also my setback with my knee. I have learned a lot recently, but it’s from another point of view -The patient and the family of the patient.

We are very much at the mercy of our medical staff, one wrong step can make a snowball effect, very much like my mother’s current medical history. It is also human for the medical staff to once in a blue moon make the wrong decisions, and it’s all about your own personal coping mechanisms and about the backup from family and friends that sees you through everything. I for one, found out how cool my brain is during the incidents, and then the all crippling shock of it all that comes afterwards. But we have endured, we have prevailed my family and I.

I hope that year 2020 is going to be a much better year for us, we have had a lot of bad luck this year, not just these two incidents, but in our entire family as well. But we cope and we will get stronger from going through this.

I’m proud of myself for doing what I did during my kneecap dislocation, for stepping up and relocating it myself, for thinking “Damn I don’t want my better half to see my knee like this, this is bad!” -I have no clue as to how I did what I did, but I managed, I have a new sense of respect for myself!

New Years in pictures

The year 2017 was amazing, it was the year that I finally started my nurses assistant education, the year that I found out how it really felt like to be a nurses assistant and how busy it can be, but also rewarding!

It was the year that my amazing fiancé found work as a tiler and I am so insanely proud of him, he is such a strong man and such a wonderful dad and a fantastic fiancé

This year has been hard work, fun, exciting and down right busy! I found a job as an uneducated carer, so I’m basically working two jobs – one as an intern and one as uneducated, it’s hard, but it’s rewarding, I love helping and caring for people and I can’t wait to go to work again! I wouldn’t have it any other way.. My work is a part of who I am, and I am proud of that!

2017 has been a year of growth for me, a year where I’ve built up my confidence and where I have had so much love and support from my fiancé in almost everything I’ve done! I can’t thank him enough..

It’s also been the year where I’ve finally gotten my drivers license – something I’ve been putting off for forever, because I lived close to everything and never needed to drive. – But now I finally have it, and I’m driving! What’s even better is, I got my moms car to drive in all the time, since she hardly used it, I’m so thankful for that!

My little sister finished her masters degree in IT – I’m such a proud big sis, she is such a brainy girl and I know she will end up becoming someone great, she is just that type of girl. Determined and insanely smart

It’s also been a year of redecorating, where we redid the entire bedroom – newly painted and newly furnitured, now we just want a new bed, and a few bits and bobs, I really love that bedroom now!

2017 has also been all about spending time with my bonus babies, and I miss them dearly right now! They were here the summer of ’17, for three weeks, and I cried horribly when they had to go home! I felt miserable for weeks..

I truly hope that everyone had a wonderful and safe celebration of the new year and that 2018 will be an amazing year, mine can’t be anything but, cause I have them three wonderful bonus babies, my fiancé and my family by my side! I couldn’t wish for anything more from 2017, it’s been the best year I could have imagined!

See you online guys! x

Gonna be a long day..

”Flexibile learning”

That is what they call it, sitting in class without any teacher, at an adult education facility, its silly, all those modern smartass ways of learning, and our teachers are caught in the middle of all of this, saying they agree with us, but can’t do anything. It’s the politicians that think it’s a great way to run the classrooms, once a week, a Thursday for us, and we are sat there, all alone for hours, getting a tiny bit of homework, that we do in about half an hour and then we can stare into the wall, or get unattendance if we leave.. Decisions, decisions.. *sigh*

I feel the teachers though, it must be horrible to work like this, to be professional and having to deal with these ”clever” politicians and the fact that they know nothing about teaching or how students learns and how we thrive in a classroom. I wish it was different, I wish we had normal classes and would learn something in these hours, its important to me, it really is. I am dealing with people every day, and I need to be sharp and informed, to know what to do in each situation that can appear, but the teachers are doing their abselute best with what they have been given, thats for sure, I love the teachers, but damn the system is terrible. I wish that the politicians would spend a month in a students or teachers shoes, and then create new and suitable ideas for learning and thriving.

We do learn a lot at my school, but can’t help but wonder.. How much would we learn, if we did not have this ”flexible learning” every Thursday? How ahead would we be? How much extra could we learn? – It’s worth a thought really.

Hope all you guys have a lovely Thursday, I will try, even though I’m tired and am moody cause of this ”flexible” way of learning lol..

See you online x

From 2016 to 2017

I have a lot to tell you guys!

A lot of new and exciting things have happened lately, goals I have reached, all new opportunities and much more.. I hardly know where to begin, so I will try to tell you guys everything and hope I remember everything. I haven’t been writing a lot lately, actually not at all, but I have been insanely busy with my education and just everyday life, my work / internship, my fiancé and my family, so I have neglected the blog, and I am sorry, I hope to have a lot more time from now on, to write, which I really love to do.

Love:

My fiancé and I are doing fantastic, he is truly the love of my life. Everything seems simple with him and I feel stronger and a lot more confident than I ever did before. He changed everything when he came into my life, and I have him to thank for a lot of positive changes in my life. – My education especially, I couldn’t have done it without him and his support, he is nothing but amazing.

We are planning a complete redecoration of our home, and we already did some of it, the kitchen is done all up, and is looking gorgeous! We got a new sofa too, and soon we will get a new TV unit and coffee table. My fiancé have always been amazing at DIY, and our kitchen is made by him completely, the tiling and everything.

We are having a lot of ideas for the future and its so exciting to be able to plan all of this together, I’m a lucky woman.

My education and work:

Well as you all might already know, I started my Care Helper education (SOSU hjælper in Danish), I went to Greve and got an internship, and I started my internship, and I met so many new and amazing people, the colleagues I worked with, have been nothing but amazing, and I felt part of the team instantly. I love working with elderly, and I feel like I’m making a huge difference in people’s life, by just being there and being me – what more could I wish for? – But I got luckier than I ever imagined!

Shortly after my internship, still half a year to go of my education, I got offered another contract by Greve Communes education consultant as an assistant, Nurses Assistant – or Care Assistant if you like. It’s huge to me, I will be skipping my Care Helper education and moving directly on to the Assistant education, the one education that I wished to have, the helper just being a way to reach my main goal.

I will be able to dose pills, do catheter care (flushing them out, insert them and change them), tend wounds – all sorts! I love it, it’s so exciting to me and I can’t wait to begin! I have already started to try different Assistant tasks just before the new year, and now I have a bit of school, I will proceed on the Helper education, until its time to start the Assistant education, which will be Feb the 20th. January I will be doing my internship at the same care center, and there I will be experiencing the work tasks of an Assistant, oh I can’t wait!

I can’t express how grateful and lucky I feel, and how much I appreciate this amazing opportunity, my work means the world to me, and my workplace too, I love my colleagues! I found the one thing that I want to work with, the rest of my life.

Exorcise:

I was the lucky winner of a fitness package from Club Matas, I won a Garmin Smart Scale and a Garmin Vivofit 3 watch!

the weight is Wi-Fi connected, it measures weight, body mass index, body fat, skeletal muscle mass and more, recognizes up to 16 users and have up to 9 months of battery life!

The watch features 1+ year battery life, it shows steps, calories, distance, intensity minutes and time of day on backlit display; monitors sleep, have an auto activity detection classifies activity type on Garmin Connect, it reminds you to stay active with move bar and audible alert and automatically syncs to Garmin Connect to save, plan and share progress.

I love the watch! Am wearing it every day, and It’s amazing, I walk a lot at work, I walk about 6,5 kilometers, for me that’s about 10.500 steps a day, and it shows how many calories I burn doing it, am quite loving this! So in 2017, its time to get fit and watch out for my body, I want to strengthen my back, cause in my line of work, I use my back a lot!

My Coca Cola detox:

I was quite addicted to Cola, I wrote a blog post about the addiction and what it did to me, headaches, dizziness, nausea and tremors when I didn’t drink the stuff, I had pretty much every damn withdraw symptom in the book! It scared me so much, that I quit drinking it, and It’s been a year since I drank the stuff and to be honest, if it wasn’t for my fiancé, I would probably be drinking it still. – I’m thankful, and very proud of myself, I actually stopped drinking that stuff and I quit an addiction! I don’t smoke, I don’t really drink – all I really did was drink Cola, but that was bad enough. Now It’s over and it feels fantastic!

Books:

I started to read a lot again, and I quite adore thriller books, am reading one currently that’s called ”The slaughter man” by Tony Parsons, in English. Have been thinking about writing some book reviews again, I love reading and if I find any good books, I might as well send some reviews your way!

Merry christmas and a happy new year!

Hope you all had a merry Christmas and a happy New Year, I sure did, I was spoilt immensely this Christmas, and my New year was calm and relaxing, just as both my fiancé and I needed. Christmas was spend with my family this year, with duck and a pork roast and all the trimmings us Danes usually have. New years were steaks and salad, cream potatoes and some gorgeous bread. It was highly needed, family around us and some us time, just finally relaxing, we really needed that.

See you guys online x

 

 

 

 

Working hard

My work uniform and name tag!

It’s been a few weeks since I started my care helper education, I had only one week at the education center, then it was time to be an intern. 😅

– But I can honestly say, it’s been an amazing experience, one week have passed to be precise and the people I’ve met have all been wonderful! I truly feel quite lucky to have gotten this internship at this town, it’s a perfect fit for me. I feel like I belong, I did that since day one actually, and it’s been rewarding to work with people and keeping active every day. The more time I spend in this line of work, the more passionate I become, I don’t just want to do okay at this, I wanna ace it. I want to be the best that I can possibly be – not better than anyone else, but strive for perfection in my own boundaries of knowledge and skill, I think that it’s important to set a goal, I want to wake up every morning and be the best version of me that I can possibly be.

There is so much that I still want to learn, but I have time and I can’t wait to take everything in, soak it up and write it down in my “geek book”! 😄  (see the picture below)

My notebook where i write about deceases and other very important subjects I need to remember. (The geek book)


Life lately have been extremely busy, I’ll tell you guys more about it later – if you haven’t already seen on my Instagram? 😉 But now, I better go to sleep, I have a tricky Tuesday tomorrow! 

See you online! x

Education and internship 

This is my education center on the inside!

This is my education center on the outside!

This is my new education, at the introduction course, I went to a school located inside the city, it took about an hour to get there, way way inconvenient to get to and honestly.. I was lucky to get to this school instead, and also to get an internship in the town just next to mine. 
Tomorrow I start my internship and I can’t explain how excited I am, I can’t wait to get started and to learn a lot of new things. In my line of work, you can always learn new things, there’s constantly something that changes and health care can always evolve and I find that pretty amazing! 

I love what I do, and that’s why I’m taking this education, I’m so lucky that I found my way in the jungle of careers out there, now it’s just to keep on the path towards becoming a care helper, and see what the future holds!

I hope you all have had some amazing vacations this summer, see you online! x 

My exam and my results

I have been biting my nails for two weeks straight, it has been a battle and I have had so much stress these past weeks that I can’t even begin to explain it, but its been all worth it!

Exam-Word-Map-flatAt the 20th of June I went to draw my exam case in science. Basically, what we did, was go and pick between 6 cases, I picked for us, cause we were so nervous and I just snatched the first and best exam case there was! Number two, my lucky number!

We got the case, sat down, opened it, read it up, found out what subjects to weigh highest and then we went home, we had 24 hours to write and research and use our textbooks, I wrote a lot of Que cards and had with me.

 

Basically the subjects I had chosen to weigh highest was:

  • Enzymes in the body, how it works and what protein, fat and carbs gets broken down to.
  • Enzymes in the dishwashing soap and how it works on a theoretical level.
  • Enzymes in  washing powder and how it works on a theoretical level.
  • Different types of bacteria, where they thrive, what kills them and how to prevent being infected with the different types of bacteria.
  • Atoms, covalent bindings, ion bindings and what the octet rule and the doublet rule is, and how to calculate how many neutrons there is in an atom.
  • Fluid calculations and also extra fluid calculation when you have a fever and a calculation for what fluids she should drink if her BMI was on a healthy normal scale.
  • BMI calculation and why elderly is better off having a higher BMI, then a BMI calculation of what type of BMI the citizen should have had.
  • Mold and why it’s so dangerous, how it thrives and what you can do to prevent it.
  • Nutrition and protein drinks, how protein binds fat in your body and why a Y-plate is such a good choice.
  • A carbs, protein and fat calculation, how much should a citizen eat if they had to gain weight or keep their weight.

That was basically what I went in and talked about!

I went in the examination room the 21st of June and scored an A+ on the English grade scale / 12 on the Danish grade scale, I was so nervous, but the examination went beyond what I had ever dreamt of. This was defiantly the exam i dreaded the most, but I did it! The censor told me that I was a star, that was something completely new, I teared up and I couldn’t help but cry – happy tears of course! I have never been praised so much in my entire life, he was the best censor I have ever had. I will never forget the praise he gave me, I will take it with me in my further education and I will be calmer, tell myself that I can do this and that I am clever, that I can do calculations

Thursday the 30th of June, I went and had my last exam, this was a ”pass or not pass” grade we got, we had half a week to make a case, based on the subjects that was in the book, it was our ”basic course” that we had to pass, everyone needed to pass this, only a few had to do the science exam, because others had a different education background and had this previously in their education.

I went in the 30th as the second student, and I talked way too long, but was told by the censor, that she hoped I went all the way, and that I took my nurse’s assistant education too, but I want the nurse too, so I have quite a long way to go still, but I’m proud and relived that I got so amazing grades!

For the first time ever, I feel confident that this education and this line of work is just right! I have chosen the right path.

Everyone out there working hard on their exams right now, so much good luck to you! I know how the anticipation nervousness and butterflies feel like! You can do it!

See you guys online! x