The last few months..

So I’ve been up to a lot of stuff these past few months, most of them quite bad experiences.

I ended up dislocating my kneecap early in the morning 20.10.19 whilst in the bathroom and the feeling of it all was so intense, having to yell my better half’s name across the apartment to get help, and him running to me, that was scary. I then told him to go get my phone so I could call emergency services and then I relocated my kneecap myself while he wasn’t in view, and I remember thinking that he shouldn’t see this and that I wanted to spare him for it… I’m kinda happy that I could do that myself, so I didn’t need the hospital staff to do it, but I cannot describe the actual pain of dislocating a kneecap, it’s insane.

The first picture is a few hours after the dislocation and relocation of my kneecap.

My right knee a few hours after the dislocation.

As if that weren’t enough, my mum was rushed to the ER due to her eyes, she had pressure build up, due to dialated pupils, she had been to see an eye doctor who had given her some eye drops to examine her eyes and she had a very bad reaction.

The pressure in both her eyes was at max buildup at 77, that is insanely dangerous and not healthy at all for your eyes or your brain for that matter, due to the pressure buildup being located behind the eye sockets and therefore also close to the brain.

Circles = circulation cut off

The last few months has been pure hell, I haven’t been able to walk much due to my insanely swollen knee – no bruising though! I had to go on sick pay and postpone my internship too, which sucks so much!

I am doing physiotherapy exorcises every day at home, and I’m also attending this group workout session every Monday morning from 8 – 9, so I can get my leg back to normal.

To be honest, I had my leg in a Don Joy brace for almost a full month, with a 30 degree bend as my only movement, so I lost a lot of muscle in my leg and also my tendons have shortened, first I couldn’t bend my leg at all, but now it’s mainly straightening my leg that’s impossible, hence why I can’t walk properly, it just sucks.. I’m dead scared of dislocating it again, the pain was so unreal and intense.. But there is like a 30% possibility of this happening again, so I need to always keep working on my legs and gain muscle to support my kneecap, so it won’t happen again.

My Don Joy brace

I was on some heavy painkillers, Tramadol 100mg x3 a day, that dose I honestly didn’t even take! I took half, which is 50mg, but only once or twice a day, just to endure the pain the first week or so. But those pills are horribly addictive, so I refused to take them for long and I skipped those pretty fast. I only take regular painkillers if needed now, I have seen too many people addicted to Tramadol.

My heavy painkillers that I skipped pretty fast.

My mom underwent eye surgery and got her eye lenses removed and replaced on both her eyes due to cataract. The whole procedure was done on a single week with multiple hospital visits, a lot of medicine to keep any pressure buildup down and two surgeries, which I attended -even though I was limping around like an idiot and people thought I was the one needing some sort of surgery… My mum is thankfully doing much better now, and is happy, healthy and pain free -and with no side effects of the pressure buildup in her eyes. Her eye lenses were stiff due to the cataract and that left her with a very small “frame” in her eyes, which then blocked the drainage in both her eyes completely when she got the eye drops at her eye doctors, so he could check her eyes, which is normally a routine thing.

The whole thing could have ruined her vision and created chronic glaucoma, which would have impaired her vision a lot.. But she got a clean bill of health and could all finally relax!

Glaucoma explained.

I am currently lying in bed, just took a 600mg painkiller to dull the ache in both my knees – one due to kneecap dislocation (patellaluxation) the other due to strain, cause of my inability to walk properly, therefore I lean a lot on my left knee.

I got the Don Joy off after almost a month, I donated it to Africa…. I’m happy to be rid of that thing, and now I have a kneecap support band that is supposed to lock the kneecap in place, until you gain enough muscle to not dislocate the kneecap once more. The situation is honestly horrible, I’m usually the nurse, not the patient! I hate being the vulnerable one, I’m a good nurse but a horrible patient.

Kneecap stabilization band.

Last week (Thursday – 28.11.19) I had what’s called electro therapy, that really sucked… It was supposed to awaken my big muscle in my upper thigh, so it could help me straighten my leg out again. For almost ten whole minutes I had a jolt of electricity every 10 seconds going through my thigh, but no much response at all, only a tiny little visible reaction, I’m supposed to have more electro therapy today, so wish me and my leg luck, I need to see results now!

A borrowed picture of undergoing electro therapy.

I’ll see if I can get some proper pictures of the electro therapy today, maybe even do a whole “how to” on physio for weak knees, it might just help someone else out, which is somehow a bit comforting to know.

I’m going to try and relax a bit now before getting ready for today’s session of pain haha, I’m almost used to the torture by now, but somehow it’s also comforting, I know it needs to hurt to get better, especially when it’s muscles and short tendons! I’m glad that my education have at least prepared me a little for this entire disaster, both my mum and her surgery and also my setback with my knee. I have learned a lot recently, but it’s from another point of view -The patient and the family of the patient.

We are very much at the mercy of our medical staff, one wrong step can make a snowball effect, very much like my mother’s current medical history. It is also human for the medical staff to once in a blue moon make the wrong decisions, and it’s all about your own personal coping mechanisms and about the backup from family and friends that sees you through everything. I for one, found out how cool my brain is during the incidents, and then the all crippling shock of it all that comes afterwards. But we have endured, we have prevailed my family and I.

I hope that year 2020 is going to be a much better year for us, we have had a lot of bad luck this year, not just these two incidents, but in our entire family as well. But we cope and we will get stronger from going through this.

I’m proud of myself for doing what I did during my kneecap dislocation, for stepping up and relocating it myself, for thinking “Damn I don’t want my better half to see my knee like this, this is bad!” -I have no clue as to how I did what I did, but I managed, I have a new sense of respect for myself!

New Years in pictures

The year 2017 was amazing, it was the year that I finally started my nurses assistant education, the year that I found out how it really felt like to be a nurses assistant and how busy it can be, but also rewarding!

It was the year that my amazing fiancé found work as a tiler and I am so insanely proud of him, he is such a strong man and such a wonderful dad and a fantastic fiancé

This year has been hard work, fun, exciting and down right busy! I found a job as an uneducated carer, so I’m basically working two jobs – one as an intern and one as uneducated, it’s hard, but it’s rewarding, I love helping and caring for people and I can’t wait to go to work again! I wouldn’t have it any other way.. My work is a part of who I am, and I am proud of that!

2017 has been a year of growth for me, a year where I’ve built up my confidence and where I have had so much love and support from my fiancé in almost everything I’ve done! I can’t thank him enough..

It’s also been the year where I’ve finally gotten my drivers license – something I’ve been putting off for forever, because I lived close to everything and never needed to drive. – But now I finally have it, and I’m driving! What’s even better is, I got my moms car to drive in all the time, since she hardly used it, I’m so thankful for that!

My little sister finished her masters degree in IT – I’m such a proud big sis, she is such a brainy girl and I know she will end up becoming someone great, she is just that type of girl. Determined and insanely smart

It’s also been a year of redecorating, where we redid the entire bedroom – newly painted and newly furnitured, now we just want a new bed, and a few bits and bobs, I really love that bedroom now!

2017 has also been all about spending time with my bonus babies, and I miss them dearly right now! They were here the summer of ’17, for three weeks, and I cried horribly when they had to go home! I felt miserable for weeks..

I truly hope that everyone had a wonderful and safe celebration of the new year and that 2018 will be an amazing year, mine can’t be anything but, cause I have them three wonderful bonus babies, my fiancé and my family by my side! I couldn’t wish for anything more from 2017, it’s been the best year I could have imagined!

See you online guys! x

Christmas in pictures

My Christmas was spent with my fiancé, my parents and my little sister

My Christmas was spent with my fiancé, my parents and my little sister – it was a wonderful evening ❤️
The presents this year from my fiancé – he knows me too well! The Glow Kit from ABH, mystery box, MAC long lasting lipstick in the Metallic “Softly Rockin” and MAC lip liner in “Whirl”, these were my four main presents, I’m spoilt lol..
The items in my Mystery Box! A teddy, which is a microbe – The common cold (wasn’t in the box, he bought it separately) bicycle balls – back lights to place under the seat lol! Pizza socks, so cozy! Hyper lips, a gamer mug, a mindless coloring book and edible bubbles! – The Mystery Box is always a hit, I seriously adore it! Quirky is my middle name haha!
My mom and dad bought me a double bedcover, a really nice sweater from Guess and a gorgeous hand soap and bath gel! My little sister got me a lip primer from Golden Rose, and also a gift certificate to Golden Rose – I quite like that store!
All in all it was a wonderful Christmas and I was spoilt more than I ever imagined, I must say I spoilt my fiancé just as much as he spoilt me, although his boss ended up spoiling him even more and got him a PS4… Beat that?! Yep… lol
We had lovely and calm Christmas and after all the food was eaten and the presents opened, my little sister, fiancé and I, ended up playing a game I bought my fiancé – it was a hit! It’s called Joking Hazard, it’s quite insane, it’s from Cyanide and Happiness, I posted a picture below of one of the jokes we made that evening – we were howling with laughter 😂
I hope everyone had a merry Christmas and will have a wonderful New Year, see you online guys! x

Being someone’s “bonus” 

I told you guys in my last post, that I have had so much going on and have been very busy, that’s the reason I’ve been a bit quiet here! 🙂 

A picture from Tivoli


I finally have a little time now, and I can share with you all what I’ve been up to! 

My fiancé have been blessed earlier in life with three amazing kids and I get along with very well with their mother, she is a good friend of mine I might add and a brilliant mom! Their three kids have been on vacation here in Denmark for two weeks, and I’ve been experiencing how it is to be a “bonus mom”. ❤️

A picture from Copenhagen zoo

 
We went to Tivoli (A Danish amusement park), we went to the Zoo in Copenhagen and we went to Dino Land in our town (a huge indoor playground). We did a lot while they were here, and it was amazing to be a part of their life, I’m really lucky to be able to see them grow up like this. Their truly amazing kids and so well behaved.

A picture from Tivoli

As soon as they left us at the airport, I must admit, I cried. I was getting so used to having them around, the laughs, the hugs and the busy days.. Our home was empty and quiet after they left, it really was. They will always have a home here in Denmark with their dad and I, their brilliant kids, all tree of them. 

A picture from Copenhagen zoo

 
So this is why I’ve been so madly busy, and I’ve been loving it! I now understand the busy life of a parent / bonus parent, but also the joy that comes with it – it’s truly unique. So to every parent or bonus parent out there, so much love from me to you! It’s hard work, but it must be so rewarding.

See you guys online! x

Thursday evening out

Thursday was spent with my family, or most of my family that is! My mom couldn’t come with us but at least I got to spend some time with my dad, Bigsister, nephew, little sister and my amazing fiancé.

We went to a Chinese restaurant called Jin Jiang, it’s very close to the harbor side in Denmark, a cozy place that serves a great buffet! What I love most about that place is the fruit, it’s fresh and tastes amazing, nothing beats really fresh fruit. 

   
   
They also make some incredible sushi and I adore their deep fried prawns! The pictures above are food from their restaurant. We always chose the buffet and we have never been disappointed, I love eating there and today it was nice, quiet and cozy. Normally it’s mad busy, but luckily not today.

  
A quick picture of me before we were going out, for a change it’s black and white, I normally don’t like that, I think I look ghostly, but this picture is alright I guess. My hair have grown quite a bit since last year, I mostly just let it be and only recently I got my ends trimmed, which wasn’t much, so it’s become pretty long and it’s a bit strange having it this long, but also nice for a change!

I had a pretty good evening today, I am lucky to have a big family to share my life with, even though it can be difficult at times, chaotic and even stressful, but their always there for me and if things go south, I am blessed to have my fiancé who always seems to know what to say or what to do. You don’t chose your family, but I got quite lucky with mine.

I hope you all have spent “little Friday” / Thursday in good company, doing something productive or just a relaxed! 

See you online guys! x

My day in pictures

A day out with my dad, iced coffee at Baresso, with a chocolate scones, Pandora was visited and I got another charm, this one was from my dad, the one I linked below, so now these are the charms that I have on my bracelet.

  
    

   
   

It was nice spending some time alone with my dad, he picked the charm, I think it’s really cute and I am pretty spoiled, I really needed a father / daughter day and I think it was nice to finally spend some real time together just talking. 💕

Am gonna cook a very nice meal for my fiancé tonight, I love cooking actually, I find it relaxing and creative. 

Right now I am waiting for him to come home, so we can enjoy the weekend and Valentine’s Day together this weekend, we are not making a big deal out of it, just a nice meal and candles, I will make sure to spoil him though, he deserves that! 

Hope you all have an amazing day, see you online! xx

Pandora, love & family!

Today I finally recived my Pandora charms! I have been waiting forever to buy them and only a few days to receive them, the DHL was quite fast at delivering! But here is the pictures of the bracelet now!

  
  
I love how it looks now! I can’t wait to get more charms, I have been hooked on this, and I love collecting little meaningful charms to place on the bracelet.

These were a safety chain, so I don’t lose the bracelet and a charm that’s called cosmic stars and I got it in purple, cause it’s my favorite color, that charm was special to me, cause my fiancé picked it out and made me look twice at it, and I then foundit absolutely amazing.

Me and my fiancé are doing better than ever, planning our future and slowly deciding how to redecorate our home. I am going to be an assistant nurse and am starting my education the 7th of March, I can’t wait, I’m so excited and a little nervous too. It’s always hard being all new to something, so I hope to get a good start.

My fiancé is a great handyman, so he has been fixing things in our home – something that I am quite thankful for! He is a perfectionist and I can be completely sure that everything he touches, will be left perfect, hah! I’m a lucky woman, he is a good man, who always seems to think of me, no matter what he is doing or where he is, and I can’t picture life without him, this is what I imagined life would be as a little girl, when you found the only one, I can’t describe how lucky I feel!
Tomorrow we are having a family get together at ours and I am cooking pork roast and I can’t wait to spend some time with my family, I love cooking for them and for my fiancé, so tomorrow evening will be really cozy, I’m gonna spoil them all!

See you online guys! x